No one said this would be easy...
"What do you do when you look in the mirror and staring at you is why he's not here"
Its Friday!!!
Woot Woot!!
I need a break from school.. maybe even a break from life for just a little.. Everything i try to do every word i try to hold back just eats me inside more..It's hard not to say something when something is really bothering you.. Because all he will say is "im bitching..Im a hyporcrit...I have no right to be mad I fucked up" Most of that is probley true.. but it dosent make it any less harder not to worry about it and to hold back what I want to say..Somedays I wish i could just forget about all of this and move on, but its easier to say that then do it..Maybe I don't want to forget eirther..I feel like all I do is bitch about all this shit.. Its hard not to... I think about it more times in the day then i think about anything..But Its not like im asking for people to feel sorry for me.. Because im deffentilly not...I'm just letting out what i dont say i guess in person.. Maybe this is for the better that he dosent get back with me...Maybe he'll meet someone 100 times better then me and maybe i will meet someone 100 times better then him..Who knows what life has in store for everyone.. Its something different no matter who you are..maybe better things maybe worse things...Thats just the game of life: You win some and you loose some.
Summer summer summmer... it just a week away.. I can feel it..Maybe summer holds the key of happyness!!!
I dont no if I should Smile because we did happend and were great when we were together or to frown because I lost it, and it most likely wont come back.
Its Friday!!!
Woot Woot!!
I need a break from school.. maybe even a break from life for just a little.. Everything i try to do every word i try to hold back just eats me inside more..It's hard not to say something when something is really bothering you.. Because all he will say is "im bitching..Im a hyporcrit...I have no right to be mad I fucked up" Most of that is probley true.. but it dosent make it any less harder not to worry about it and to hold back what I want to say..Somedays I wish i could just forget about all of this and move on, but its easier to say that then do it..Maybe I don't want to forget eirther..I feel like all I do is bitch about all this shit.. Its hard not to... I think about it more times in the day then i think about anything..But Its not like im asking for people to feel sorry for me.. Because im deffentilly not...I'm just letting out what i dont say i guess in person.. Maybe this is for the better that he dosent get back with me...Maybe he'll meet someone 100 times better then me and maybe i will meet someone 100 times better then him..Who knows what life has in store for everyone.. Its something different no matter who you are..maybe better things maybe worse things...Thats just the game of life: You win some and you loose some.
Summer summer summmer... it just a week away.. I can feel it..Maybe summer holds the key of happyness!!!
I dont no if I should Smile because we did happend and were great when we were together or to frown because I lost it, and it most likely wont come back.