I <3 Rickey
It's weird how things turn out in this world. Weird how people turn out.. I know some of my decision lately haven't been the best, I know I have hurt someone really special to me, and I'm so sorry... I look at myself and I have become the exact opposite of what I wanted to be. I don't like it at all. For a little bit of time I got lost on everything I believed and all my morals. I have been thinking a lot lately.. I'm getting back on the right track now. I know how I want to be and how I want to act. I know exactly now what I don't want to do and don't want to be. I know the person I love more then anything, and how I would take a bullet for him and would spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to him. I'm so glad I'm starting to think again. This is all me now. I'm not trying to be anyone but who I am. I'm not sure what got me thinking about everything maybe because I sat down today and I looked though all my old photos from when I was little. I didn't think then that I would run in to problems or my actions would effect people.. It was so easy then. I'm not saying I'm not up to the challenging of life because I am.. What I'm trying to say is that I never new things could be so hard. I like how I'm thinking now.. It will get me a lot father in life. Today though while looking though all the old photos something was just so weird. I had so many memories in that house and it was so weird as I looked at the photo from the schools I went to there, I still remembered all the names of the kids. I wonder what they all look like now and how they act. I think soon I would like to go back to Virginia to visit, to see everything that I used to know.
Christmas is coming soon. Its going to be here in less then 3 weeks. I'm so ready. Nothing could beat a Christmas with Rickey.
Everything seems to be getting better with me and Rickey also. We are working together not to get mad over stupid things we would normaly get mad over. Were just worrying about us now. I know I hurt him really bad and I can never forgive myself for that. It would be selfish for me to ask him to forgive me as well. Although he found it in his heart to take me back. I know it still bothers him. I know for a fact we both love each other so much. I'm glad I found out in time who I want to be and how I wan to act before something amazing had to end.
I love Rickey so much I hope he sees how much I love him, Most of all how much I am sorry for what happend. I want everything from now on to be good. Signs are looking good so far! I <3 Rickey!!!!
Christmas is coming soon. Its going to be here in less then 3 weeks. I'm so ready. Nothing could beat a Christmas with Rickey.
Everything seems to be getting better with me and Rickey also. We are working together not to get mad over stupid things we would normaly get mad over. Were just worrying about us now. I know I hurt him really bad and I can never forgive myself for that. It would be selfish for me to ask him to forgive me as well. Although he found it in his heart to take me back. I know it still bothers him. I know for a fact we both love each other so much. I'm glad I found out in time who I want to be and how I wan to act before something amazing had to end.
I love Rickey so much I hope he sees how much I love him, Most of all how much I am sorry for what happend. I want everything from now on to be good. Signs are looking good so far! I <3 Rickey!!!!