it's over
with one week of senior year left, it's all basically over for me & i could not be happier to escape. every day this year i felt a part of me was sucked out & destroyed because people are fake & disappointing & being around that combination can really break a person. balance was only achieved through you & our talks & our unexplainable, yet evident, connection. high school is over-rated & honestly - not much fun. especially when your mentality & priorities & values are so far from being anything like the people around you that it's not even funny. my social anxiety hasn't been fun this year either because veering apart only drew more attention to me & made even more people think they 'knew' me & had a reason for my ever word & action. i don't even have one so i wish people would just stop. & i'm sick of girls hating me for no good reason, especially the ones that i have said a total of two words to since i've known of their existence. not out of rudeness, but just because i keep to myself & no one really gets that. i just read my big books & write my short stories & worry about myyy own future. it really helps to stop gossiping & thriving off drama & having to know the details of ever other person's life. honestly, you people would be so much happier but everything i've said takes an initial change; g r o w i n g u p.
xx