(Closed to Light Yagami)
L had just finished recreating Mello's Wammy's file from memory. If Light was willing to fight somewhat dirty than he would as well. It also didn't hurt that he knew something the younger boy did not. He doubted if he tried to manipulate Mello in any way that Matt would be happy, but still he felt he had a decent ally should the need arise. Honestly, though, he wasn't sure Light meant to hurt the boy, but he felt it better to be prepared, after all whatever Near and Mello were to him they were all he would leave behind.
And it was a good distraction from everything else he was feeling. The visit of Light's daughter had stirred up things within him that he would rather not face. He was L after all and that would never change. Wasn't Kira being here enough to prove that? So he knew there were certain things he would never have, should never want, and that was the way it was, had been, for as long as he could remember. There was no reason for it to change. Even if he was tempted it was simply too dangerous and he still had to stop Light so he couldn't allow himself to be distracted. Still, as he glanced at the computer screen he couldn't help but wonder how it would change things if he didn't act as L for once.
It didn't matter, though, that idea was too risky, and while he didn't mind risk he wouldn't undertake something until he was certain eh would have some control over the outcome, and didn't that defeat the whole purpose of doing something that was close to acting without thinking?
And it was a good distraction from everything else he was feeling. The visit of Light's daughter had stirred up things within him that he would rather not face. He was L after all and that would never change. Wasn't Kira being here enough to prove that? So he knew there were certain things he would never have, should never want, and that was the way it was, had been, for as long as he could remember. There was no reason for it to change. Even if he was tempted it was simply too dangerous and he still had to stop Light so he couldn't allow himself to be distracted. Still, as he glanced at the computer screen he couldn't help but wonder how it would change things if he didn't act as L for once.
It didn't matter, though, that idea was too risky, and while he didn't mind risk he wouldn't undertake something until he was certain eh would have some control over the outcome, and didn't that defeat the whole purpose of doing something that was close to acting without thinking?