Another holiday, of sorts (Open)

[faramir_hurin]

There is another one of those Earth holidays today. Father's Day. My father is here but I am sure he does not wish to see me. I am myself a father, but my son is gone. This reminder makes it hurt more than I really thought it would. I'll see him again, and his mother, I just don't know when

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[burnbrightnfast]

There he was, in the park again. What was with him an brooding outside? Dream would always hole himself up in his realm and broadcast his brooding to everything that he could. But this interest in walking... No, only the Prodigal Son had ever done his brooding that way.

Desire didn't like the Prodigal Son.

It had been on edge since the conversations with John - those had not gone the way it had wanted. And now it just didn't know what it wanted in the first place, anymore.

Pushing that aside, Desire clad itself in its disguise. Drawing the comfort of at least faked serenity over its troubled thoughts, it started towards Faramir.

[faramir_hurin]

I look up when I note someone coming my way and start, somewhat guiltily, when I notice who it is. Why should I feel guilt? There is no fault in caring, in missing my family.

Or perhaps it's the things I've been considering since speaking with John at the Sin.

"Tabitha. How fare you this day?"

[burnbrightnfast]

"Better than last time we met. And how are you, Faramir?" Desire smiled at him, reaching her hands to twine her long dark hair up and secure it to her head.

[faramir_hurin]

"I am glad you are better. I am much the same, though the loss is different." I stand and half-bow. "On this holiday to honour one's father, I find the loss of my son and his mother even greater than it was yesterday."

I would not speak of my own father again with Tabitha.

"I miss them, of course, though I find pleasure in the knowledge that I have a son and I will see him again."

[burnbrightnfast]

"Your son has left?" Now Desire couldn't sully him that way, it almost felt sad about that. "I'm sorry to hear that."

The mother was less interesting, Desire easily see why he had been interested in her. It was his relationship with the child that took a bit more effort for it to understand.

[faramir_hurin]

"Yes. I'll see him again, but I do not know how long it will be." I don't know how to explain it, but part of me is missing that even Boromir's loss did not cause. "I'm trying to remember the good. Today just makes the loss harder."

I wonder what Glaurmir would have done, if anything. He might not have noticed the holiday. I have come to pay attention to these things.

"It is good to see you. I've been told that I dwell upon these things too much, that I think too much." I laugh slightly. "It was John that said that."

John, who doesn't know anyone named Tabitha.

[burnbrightnfast]

John. Desire didn't want to talk about John. Him and his need to know things that Desire wasn't ready to reveal were simply destroying its good mood. Not that it had, had a good mood recently, but if it did he would have ruined it! And now this... it almost felt like probing.

Probing Desire didn't want to deal with.

"It is a wise thing to say. But perhaps a day of dwelling would not hurt so much, this is a special day after all. It could be the exception."

Desire couldn't remember which lies it had told to Faramir to get him to help with John, so the best way would be to avoid talking about him.

[faramir_hurin]

"To dwell would not make me very good company. If you would rather leave then I will understand--it is not as though we planned to meet." I give her a little smile. "If you stay, then I can be more cheerful. It would be easy to do."

If she stayed.

"You would make a welcome distraction from dwelling." I think on the other things that John said, my own musing since, and blush furiously.

[burnbrightnfast]

Desire's face cracked a smile before she could help it when confronted with his blush. That wasn't terribly uncommon with it, but she enjoyed the reaction all the same.

"I can stay and help you think of other things." Maybe dwelling would be bad for him, after all.

[faramir_hurin]

"Is it amusing to see me turn so red? I curse my skin that does so even with all the time I spend out of doors." Then again... "Or is it amusing but not in a funny way?"

I'm not sure how to further explain that.

"I don't mean to be rude, but part of my difficulty when last we met was the location." I smile. "Though thinking is fine out here. Not thinking is something else."

[burnbrightnfast]

"It's amusing, but not funny," Desire agreed. "I meet you thinking outside far too often, I think. Sometimes we'll have to meet inside as well."

[faramir_hurin]

"Should I be thinking then?" I ask, still somewhat red because of what I'm remembering of the conversation with John--she could not possibly know where my mind is with that. "Or could we go inside after having met outside?"

I'm working to calm the blush.

"Not necessarily now."

[burnbrightnfast]

"Do you still have things you wish to think about?" Desire smirked. Even without its skills, his wandering mind would have been apparent, given his inability to stop blushing.

[faramir_hurin]

"There are always things I could be thinking about." I do understand what she's saying. "Though I must agree that not thinking can be healthy, sometimes."

Just doing.

"It's also been suggested..." How can I say this? "Well, I'm generally in charge of things. As a captain, as one of the leaders of Gondor. Even here I run the library."

I am speaking a bit more quickly than I normally would.

"I've heard that it might not be so bad were I not always in charge of things. I could learn something that way, and admittedly I've always enjoyed my studies." I'm not blushing now, nor am I meeting Tabitha's eyes. I'm trying, I just can't quite manage it.

[burnbrightnfast]

"It seems you've been doing a lot of thinking since last time we talked." And a bit of babbling, too. Which was a little adorable, if Desire were pushed to comment on it.

It wasn't entierly positive what he was getting it. It was pretty sure - being Desire gave it a fairly good idea - but it was enjoying his fumbling, and mostly wanted him to say it himself.

"Perhaps we could go inside and discuss your control and... studies." Desire smirked brightly, the inflection on its last sentence bringing a feeling of delicious helplessness with a flash of writhing bodies and whispered words.

[faramir_hurin]

"Not all thinking is bad, just too much." I've been told. "Though I'm not against a bit of studying. You are a modern woman and my ways are old-fashioned. To have you for a teacher would be an honour. A pleasure."

If I can keep away from the blushing.

"May I escort you to your room?" I offer my arm, though a bit more rakishly than I generally would. I do not wish to go to my room. Somehow, having my cat there makes me feel watched.

As ridiculous as that thought it, some of my nerves are taken away with it. Or do they simply leave of their own accord, as I'm beginning to feel the way Tabitha always makes me feel.