First kolej post
My birthday was yesterday. My friend Amanda baked me a chocolate penis cake, and my friends Patricia and Linda got me The Elements of Style (the illustrated version!). It was great. My friends are so thoughtful- a bunch of people got me stuff for my birthday, and tons more wished me a happy birthday. I would say it was my favorite birthday to date.
I'm kind of worried about how people here are seeing me, though. I mean, I tell crazy stories to people at home and they're shocked because it's innocent little Ashley doing all of this, and we can all laugh and then go back to thinking I'm a sweet little girl who gets into odd situations. But I'm afraid that here, I've created a persona that's an immoral badass, which is not what I am at all. My stories portray that just because I've ended up in really weird places. In terms of immoral, when it comes to certain things, I have different morals than other people. It's not anything that would hurt anyone, but people are quick to assume that I end up at a certain set of actions because of a certain mindset. But that's not it at all. I have a very valid explanation, even if not many people comprehend it. It's difficult to stay true to my value system when everyone here frowns upon it, and judges me inaccurately because of it.
I've been so bad with keeping in touch with people. I have some sort of mental block against talking to people I know I won't see for a while. I think it's some weird instinct to protect myself from the pain of not seeing the people I love. So if this refers to you, please forgive me.
In conclusion, penis.
I'm kind of worried about how people here are seeing me, though. I mean, I tell crazy stories to people at home and they're shocked because it's innocent little Ashley doing all of this, and we can all laugh and then go back to thinking I'm a sweet little girl who gets into odd situations. But I'm afraid that here, I've created a persona that's an immoral badass, which is not what I am at all. My stories portray that just because I've ended up in really weird places. In terms of immoral, when it comes to certain things, I have different morals than other people. It's not anything that would hurt anyone, but people are quick to assume that I end up at a certain set of actions because of a certain mindset. But that's not it at all. I have a very valid explanation, even if not many people comprehend it. It's difficult to stay true to my value system when everyone here frowns upon it, and judges me inaccurately because of it.
I've been so bad with keeping in touch with people. I have some sort of mental block against talking to people I know I won't see for a while. I think it's some weird instinct to protect myself from the pain of not seeing the people I love. So if this refers to you, please forgive me.
In conclusion, penis.