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I've been having the weirdest dreams lately. First the crazy ass Dumbledore Soulja Boy dream and then the one I had last night. Like it's too damm much to explain so i[m not but justknow that it was crazy as hell and if you'd like to know what it was about, get at me. As for break so far, I'm not quite sure how I feel. I kinda don't enjoy hanging out with my friends from home anymore. Part of me still still wants too but the other pat is like what the hell is this petty bullshit that is going on with everyone me. I need for EVERYONE to grow the hell up. Being here sometimes gives me a headache. And what sucks is that I was what both sides of my friends are complaining about. I see and agree with one side and I see and agree with the other side as well. Am I the only one who has learned to overlook people's flaws. No one is perfect. Just understand their flaws and characteristics and remember them. Don't talk to someone who you know will put your shit out there to everyone else. You too can still be friends to just forget that this person does that. OR If you know that you don't like someone or are not feeling them at the moment, why are you putting on this facade and acting like you are the happiest person in the world to see them. Be real. It's not hard. I would rather be by myself or better yet... with my family?!?!?!... then all that nonsense. Like for real, I knew I was getting sick of the nonsense last year, but this year I just feel ready to let go. And thats horrible. I don't like saying that but its true. Something isn't right when it's stressful to hang out with your friends. And I'm messed up too. It's like I'm really not trying to hard to hang out with them but I get mad when I'm not included. Actually it's not that I get mad when I'm mad not included,I get angry when my friends who I met from college hang out with my friends from highschool and don't even call me to let me know whats up. They will call all of them, and not call me at all. And then none of my friends from highschool let me know. WTF is that. Thats what bothers me. All I know, is too much drama, too much bullshit, and I'm sick of it. Breaks are supposed to be relaxing. NOT WORKING. Just typing this entry is giving me a headache. It's like what worst of all is that I'm thinking like wouldn't it be cool to go for breakfast now, and I was like I could ask some of my friends and then my next thought was no I really don't want to do that. I'll ask my dad. I just want the nonsense to end. Now I will continue watching Lord Of the Rings only because I'm cool.