*NOW* it's all hitting me.

[heartpause]

now i can't stop reading about all the victims.

and even though i didn't know any of them, it's so incredibly sad to think about it all.

they were all *SO* young. didn't even get to graduate college. didn't get to have kids.

it's all so surreal......va tech has always been known as a really good state school here.

..........and now this happens.........and that school's never gonna be the same again.

i wonder how many students the school is gonna lose solely from them not wanting to be there anymore?

i wonder how much enrollment's gonna drop next school year, or even next semester?

i was actually too scared to apply there 'cause i knew my grades/extra-curriculars weren't good enough to get me in.

i visited the campus once, one weekend when i was going to school at cnu and i went with some friends to visit some of their friends at tech.

i had to sleep on a guys floor there 'cause my friend's female friend didn't have enough room i guess with my friend staying there.

............i wonder if i slept in one of the dorms where it happened.

i just can't even believe something like this happened again.

.............reading about the kid that did it is even creepier. i don't think i want to read about him anymore.

my heart goes out to all the victims and their families even though none of them are reading this........but i hope they all R.I.P.