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josh likes me. we talked from 10-3 am last night. Only a few more days. :) yet :(
Year books were sad. Senior tributes were fun though. My mommy suprised me. I don't want to grow up. I wish I could stay 17...forever. I just want to press pause. And never have to go. I want to go to Boston, I really do. But I am so scared. Mostly everyone is staying here, or going to Miami or something, and I'm going so far away. I am really happy that I am able to do that, becuase all throughout high school, my one motivation for getting good grades was so I would be able to get into a school up there. And I did. More than one school. And it's what I wanted, but...I'm just so scared to go away from everything that I know. I don't know how I'm going to be next fall, and I don't know what kind of people are going to be with me, and I'm so scared of change. I'm scared I'm going to be alone. I guess there's always free nights and weekend minutes long distance :/
Anyways. I don't know what's really going on in my life. I can't wait to get out of here June 14th :) and Just lay on the beach. Josh is breaking up with Lauren tonight, at least he says. When we were talking last night, he talked a lot about how she wasn't the girl he thought she was (duhhh) and she only wanted him as a possesion. It pisses me off sort of tonight, because he told me he's going to see mean girls iwth her tonight, but breaking up wiht her also? i don't know. this makes me mad becuase 2 weekends ago when he was upset because lauren's a bitch, i offered to take him to see mean girls and he turned me down becuase he said he didn't want to see the movie. so now he's going? what the f? so i asked about that, and he said that she is pretty much forcing him. so we shall see what happens. HE BETTER NOT BE A GOD DAMN PUSSY.
I'm proud of myself. I've been on a running streak. I never really ran before outside of soccer. This is the first time in four years I havne't been in offseason at this time, so I guess it just felt weird to not be running. I've been running 4-6 miles every night depending on how late it is.
Cursive, The Cure, and Thursday in July:)
josh likes me. we talked from 10-3 am last night. Only a few more days. :) yet :(
Year books were sad. Senior tributes were fun though. My mommy suprised me. I don't want to grow up. I wish I could stay 17...forever. I just want to press pause. And never have to go. I want to go to Boston, I really do. But I am so scared. Mostly everyone is staying here, or going to Miami or something, and I'm going so far away. I am really happy that I am able to do that, becuase all throughout high school, my one motivation for getting good grades was so I would be able to get into a school up there. And I did. More than one school. And it's what I wanted, but...I'm just so scared to go away from everything that I know. I don't know how I'm going to be next fall, and I don't know what kind of people are going to be with me, and I'm so scared of change. I'm scared I'm going to be alone. I guess there's always free nights and weekend minutes long distance :/
Anyways. I don't know what's really going on in my life. I can't wait to get out of here June 14th :) and Just lay on the beach. Josh is breaking up with Lauren tonight, at least he says. When we were talking last night, he talked a lot about how she wasn't the girl he thought she was (duhhh) and she only wanted him as a possesion. It pisses me off sort of tonight, because he told me he's going to see mean girls iwth her tonight, but breaking up wiht her also? i don't know. this makes me mad becuase 2 weekends ago when he was upset because lauren's a bitch, i offered to take him to see mean girls and he turned me down becuase he said he didn't want to see the movie. so now he's going? what the f? so i asked about that, and he said that she is pretty much forcing him. so we shall see what happens. HE BETTER NOT BE A GOD DAMN PUSSY.
I'm proud of myself. I've been on a running streak. I never really ran before outside of soccer. This is the first time in four years I havne't been in offseason at this time, so I guess it just felt weird to not be running. I've been running 4-6 miles every night depending on how late it is.
Cursive, The Cure, and Thursday in July:)