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today was INSANE.
after 2 hours at work, Grant got a call, then called me and Fungai into the office and all of a sudden we had to go to Hove to have a second interview about the investigation, be one another's witnesses basically.
so we got a taxi, went there, talked to 2 other managers for over an hour, then waited for Ben H to tell them more lies which he indeed did. he was very adamant that he didn't want us in the same room while he was interviewed though. he is just scared.
then we went back on the train, had lunch at 3:20 which was too late for me because at that time i already had the worst headache and was just shattered altogether. i had to lie down on the bench in the staff room because i felt so bad. i couldn't go home though because i really need all the money i can get. i may end up handing my notice in if things don't improve there.
and i'm not letting this go. i want to see Ben fired. and i want to see people questioning Louise's authority. i made a point of complaining about her incompetence as well as Jill's today. they're just full of shit and i am beyond sick of it. their attitude, the way they only care about their own jobs, the way they're wasting my time.
i don't like blowing things out of proportion, and i don't usually put all my energy into stuff like that. but this is the one thing i won't drop. Louise is the worst hypocrite i have ever met and it's about time people realize and call her on her shit.
i realized two things today: i'm afraid of repeating "mistakes" and for the longest time i thought it would be better to stay here and sit through everything that's going on in order to just not run away again. but that is not the solution either because all the crap simply adds up and nothing gets any better.
and number 2: i must change how i turn any first sign of anger into being upset in order to just not get angry. how i turn being sick of someone or someone's actions into being sick of being myself. it's so twisted. it's just not right.
after 2 hours at work, Grant got a call, then called me and Fungai into the office and all of a sudden we had to go to Hove to have a second interview about the investigation, be one another's witnesses basically.
so we got a taxi, went there, talked to 2 other managers for over an hour, then waited for Ben H to tell them more lies which he indeed did. he was very adamant that he didn't want us in the same room while he was interviewed though. he is just scared.
then we went back on the train, had lunch at 3:20 which was too late for me because at that time i already had the worst headache and was just shattered altogether. i had to lie down on the bench in the staff room because i felt so bad. i couldn't go home though because i really need all the money i can get. i may end up handing my notice in if things don't improve there.
and i'm not letting this go. i want to see Ben fired. and i want to see people questioning Louise's authority. i made a point of complaining about her incompetence as well as Jill's today. they're just full of shit and i am beyond sick of it. their attitude, the way they only care about their own jobs, the way they're wasting my time.
i don't like blowing things out of proportion, and i don't usually put all my energy into stuff like that. but this is the one thing i won't drop. Louise is the worst hypocrite i have ever met and it's about time people realize and call her on her shit.
i realized two things today: i'm afraid of repeating "mistakes" and for the longest time i thought it would be better to stay here and sit through everything that's going on in order to just not run away again. but that is not the solution either because all the crap simply adds up and nothing gets any better.
and number 2: i must change how i turn any first sign of anger into being upset in order to just not get angry. how i turn being sick of someone or someone's actions into being sick of being myself. it's so twisted. it's just not right.