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summer isn't even close to the way it was just a year before. I thought i'd mind. but i honestly dont. i spend all my free time with sean, and i spend alot of time with my sister too. but every minute i spend with sean is another minute farther from the life i had and the way i was, and a minute closer to what i am becoming. i guess it really sounds fucking stupid but its so true. and i used to think nothing on this earth could ever make me happy but he does and he always does. yeah we fight but thats unavoidable. hes very protective. and i need that and i know i get mad sometimes but in all honesty i know that hes only trying to help me. theres nothing i hate more than fighting with him. i cant stand it. it makes me so upset i dont know what to do with myself. it sounds alittle pathetic but thats alright i suppose. im entitled to overreact on somethings i suppose. Everything i am, i am because of him. no ones loved me more in my entire life then him. and i dont care what anyone says about us ever because it could nevere change the way i feel. and when i see people who have tried to ruin it for us in the past it makes me so fucking mad. the anger i feel is immeasurable, and that way i will always feel towards those people. those fucking bitches who try to fuck my shit up for something they want but can't have, well fuck them, i will not let this go because what i have is perfect and all i could ever want. i hate being apart from him. i know im 16 but i feel so much older than i really am. im not gonna be creepy but theres so much i want for this in the upcoming future and its so hard to see whats going to arise. im so scared and yet so happy. and the two have never been a more perfect match. just like us. fear and happiness is what you feel when your in love i guess, well for me at least. and im in love. everyday is something different, good day, bad day, whatever it may be...its one more day i spent knowing that you're all mine.
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