emm.
well when you make an effort for things to change and then things never change, its very disappointing. sometimes i think to myself well maybe its jsut me and i am the one who is wrong... but then i think again and im like how can that be. some people just dont understand when they are hurting you. some people dont give a fuck about anyone else but themselves. Its so unfair, when you try your best and nothing good ever comes of it. it feels like you wasted so much time. when you make mistakes theres no one there to back you up theres no one there to listen. you never listen to anything i have to say. you never take it seriously. you never do. and i try my best to make some changes and get used to "this" you, but you know i don get why you had to go and fucking do this. ive known you for so long and as long as i can remember you had this selfish way about you, but i fucking love you regardless becuase we all have our flaws. and half the time you probably think im insane, and i may be, but your not only a friend but my best one. and that has always meant, in my book at least, your supposed to show some concern. ive done and still do all these things that are so wrong and you have no idea what its like to have a fucked up life and you never will. becuase youre always getting what you want and it makes you fucking care less and less and less about everyone else. your the most superficial person ive met. but i still fucking love you. and for that you should be grateful. i am no one and what i say will never matter anyway. but theres a thought for you. something to thnik about. and to that one has been there, well i fucking thankyou. take all my wrong doings and problems with the most intensity and seriousness as possible, always checking up on me, even when i didnt return your calls or answer them, you made sure i was doing fine. but who am i to say whats right and wrong whose good or bad. I dont even think i should care anymore...but thats just me.