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Today...today was awesome. I went to the beach with josh and alex and carly and the mother. We had a good time. it was very hott. The water was freezinggggggg...BRRRR! i didnt go in. i dont like cold water. we walked to 7-11 and got food and then we went back to the beach and sat for a while....tanned did the usual beach junk...then we ate lunch and went home around 3:00.
then we dropped josh off at his casa. and i went home carly went to alex's house i stayed home for a few hours then around 6:00 i had to go to cheerleading. i wasnt in the mood to demonstrate but i had to...the kids we demonstrate fo are like 6 and have absolutely no clue what they are doing so that frustrates me when they don't get it. But i need to be patient. Me and julie demonstrate for the same team....up until today. Some random women decided she can come and EFF things up and separate me and julie. so now i have my own team and she has hers...that was the whole point of doing this thing...so we can be together...not so some random ass could come and Eff shit up. what the hell...i dont know.
Then i found out that julie is going to be away on my birthday. it sorta upset me...actually it really upset me. Thats what ruined my night really. i wanted to be with her on my birthday. but im assuming thats not exactly an option.
But i guess i can't have my way. Its only another typical day in the fucking gay life of courtney larusso. How quaint...sounds like a book. No one cares.
And i am sort of getting the feeling that you really just don't care anymore. you have been there for me everytime even when i didnt deserve it. And now you think theres nothing left to be there for...nothing left nothing at all, so whats the point of waiting around? I dont know if you are right though im not saying you cant be....but i just dont know if you are.
this was for you if you took the chance to read it.
LEO - Personality conflicts are featured, but this gives the day color and drama. Though some people make it difficult for you to want to be nice to them, continue to devote yourself to the highest benefit for the group.
then we dropped josh off at his casa. and i went home carly went to alex's house i stayed home for a few hours then around 6:00 i had to go to cheerleading. i wasnt in the mood to demonstrate but i had to...the kids we demonstrate fo are like 6 and have absolutely no clue what they are doing so that frustrates me when they don't get it. But i need to be patient. Me and julie demonstrate for the same team....up until today. Some random women decided she can come and EFF things up and separate me and julie. so now i have my own team and she has hers...that was the whole point of doing this thing...so we can be together...not so some random ass could come and Eff shit up. what the hell...i dont know.
Then i found out that julie is going to be away on my birthday. it sorta upset me...actually it really upset me. Thats what ruined my night really. i wanted to be with her on my birthday. but im assuming thats not exactly an option.
But i guess i can't have my way. Its only another typical day in the fucking gay life of courtney larusso. How quaint...sounds like a book. No one cares.
And i am sort of getting the feeling that you really just don't care anymore. you have been there for me everytime even when i didnt deserve it. And now you think theres nothing left to be there for...nothing left nothing at all, so whats the point of waiting around? I dont know if you are right though im not saying you cant be....but i just dont know if you are.
this was for you if you took the chance to read it.
LEO - Personality conflicts are featured, but this gives the day color and drama. Though some people make it difficult for you to want to be nice to them, continue to devote yourself to the highest benefit for the group.