the butterfly chronicles
the butterfly chronicles
Current mood:
amused
Category: Blogging
this is a story of the life of a person in this world, a view of life through the eyes of a person not necessarily normal for what is considered normal in this day and age? can one even be classified as normal ? the use of this word should strongly be reconsidered but again this person has views of this world that maybe you share or even disagree that is of course your right as it is her right to feel the way she does in certain things but be warned the views are not always as open and explored though she is opinionated, her view only lies in what she knows and has experienced through the mostly sheltered life.
this is my diary of thoughts mostly random ones for as of late this seems to best describe my mood and way of life though I'd like it to be more planed which might seem strange to most but then again that is me also my outlook onto this world is one of somewhat uniqueness due to the fact that for the most part I live it without major interaction with those in it, frankly speaking I'm not a very social person how this came about or even why its like this even I dnt know but for now its just who I am.( if you wondering I feel that seeing as how these are my thoughts that you are about to encounter you should have at least some back story on wat kind of person ) I am mostly a person of continuous habit I like routine it rationalizes my life so to speak having a general way of doing things keeps me sane which in this day and age has become so difficult with almost the whole world on some pill or in most cases pills its hard to avoid I'm not crazy to the point of needing to take anything for it, though I wont deny that I do consider myself to be slightly crazy that being because the thought ppl being completely sane is highly irrational when you think about it, oh you'll also notice that I ramble on and on sometimes to the point that the subject is lost its a flaw of mine that I realize but in truth do little to fix simply because I have greater things then this to correct what are those things? well maybe further on will find out or maybe not lets see if I can get back on point here, my current bother is the way ppl think now and the things I seemed to be lacking though I still say that most of its there ppl now though don't take the time to find these things out, me being a good example of this in that fact that I am quickly judged as to what type of person I am buy what they see on the surface what I am referring to has little to do with race and more to do with the lack of attention paid to detail most ppl tend to make rather large assumptions about ppl just on what the see presently in front of them with out taking into consideration what type of person they really are the fact that ppl judge from first impressions is just crazy to me at least I think to judge a person without truly knowing them is unfair and cannot truly count my point is this is takes years to truly know a person and even longer to understand them but in this world of I want it now not waiting and complete lack of patience they chose the quick way of looking at the surface providing an incomplete assessment of who you really are though you wouldn't want something like this to happen to you, it continues to be the way you make your choices and dont get me wrong I'm not saying go and become frnds with every person in the world... just 3/4 of it ( I'm just kidding) just and I know you've all heard this prob to much already but dnt judge a book by its cover I bet you'd would have preferred me to have said that in the beginning rite ? sorry but I did warn you that I ramble see I wasn't lying lol but on another note the things I'm lacking and I know you'll think this is weird but I can't help it are human emotions and no I'm not trying to deny the fact that I'm human dont worried it may not seem like it sometimes but I came from planet earth just I've yet to receive those key element necessary to be classified as warmblooded (sorry that made me laugh I don't know why ?) but my main missing factor is the feeling of love I feel as though I've lost the meaning of what it is somewhere in me I feel as though I once knew wat it was but now its lost to me even saying the word feels alien in almost any context though I still carry a strong belief that it should not be expressed so freely that it should be held as more of a privilege to have than something that is giving to every fluter of the heart that at least I understand, though its not something I'm even looking for just the thought that lingers in my head when its mentioned gets me thinking and its funny to me frm my stand point most of the ppl that think and say their in love are far from it though I've not the feeling of love, the understanding of the concept of love is pure logic to me which is how my brain seems to work but enough about that I'm already boring myself talking about it how sad is that ? lol maybe someone will care huh ? ...... hum no one ok thanks a bunch for your support lol well I have other things to talk about but Im asking for your opinion on both subjects maybe if I feel like it later I'll discus it some more no doubt I'll have more to say on the ppl that are so deeply caught up in this world of love and bliss not that I'm knocking you for it ( I just laugh a lil on the inside but I swear its just a lil lol) no but really let me know I'm tryin this thing where I talk to ppl its weird but operantly its something that ppl do who knew ? yep as you can see I'm a strange one and I can't promise this well be interesting for anyone unfortunate to be reading this though I congratulate you on making it this far your so brave or really bored but for your sake we'll say your really brave ok ? lol alright until next time yeah I know there's gonna be another one of these ? yep and prob just as long and confusing if not more than this one ohh I know you can't wait right? lol but until next time remember life is only worth living if you have a reason to don't just follow the crowd cause they might just be a pack of hungry zombies its happened before. bye ! eat your heart out koichi !