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If i could run away from my life i would. That is how much i am getting to hate it. because of my innerself. I love him. and other stuff in my life sucks. i was laying in bed yesturday night and i realzied how much i loved him. but it hurt cuz he has another girl. and i wish i could be that girl that he loved. and all the other problems screwed them selves and drowned. I cant expess my feelings to even sidra. and that is pretty tuff since we are so close. I need someone who loves me no matter what happens. ya screw the saying that is there are more fish in the sea. cuz i cant fine any. wow my life pretty much sucks right now. and who ever IMs me and says ppl have it alot worse i am ugnna frigging flip. cuz i care about them. but if pl keep going aw ppl have it worse I am gunna flip out! I already know about other peoples lives. and i do care but i am pissed right now so...when i last updated my livejournal i wrote about a close friend. and ppl have been asking me about who it is and why. but i am just keeping it bewteen me and that girl. no one needs to know. just have her in ur prays. but she is doing better. her and her mom are going shopping this week for knew clothes. that is a big thumbs up. one of my bestfriends even said o who is that in ur livejournal and i said dont worry about it and signed off. i was laying in bed last night thinking about what life would be with out anything. with out a life that wasan't worth living. like ppl didnt really know who you really were. and you didnt have a house. or money and you lived on the streets. you had a job a hard working job. but you didnt get payed. i was just laying in bed and i thought about it. i fell asleep with the fear that that might happen to me someday. and if it does i will have my parents. but what if ppl have no parents or anyhting. they live on the street with no more then a box. what would happen? would you die. or would ppl think you were a peice of crap. you no if you were walking on the street and you saw a poor guy and you said ew mommy or daddy look it is a poor person they are gross. I wonder what it would be like to be in that persons shoes. being picked on all day and pointed too. not just sometimes. every single day. that would suck and everyone knows it would suck. when you are younger you never think that could happen to you, but it sure can..