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all the signs say NO,
but in my heart, they keep saying YES.
why do i REALLY want to go to Pullman.
i loved the school the campus the town.
but would i have honestly given as much consideration if
HE wasn't there?
i want to say no,
WSU is where i belong eduacationaly
but i wonder if thats just where my heart belongs
to a stupid boy
in Pullman.
who shots coyotes on his moped with his bestfriend
skins it
and hangings it on the wall.
the one who gets too drunk to answer the phone when we come
to into town, with no directions to his house,
the one that doesn't eat the crust off his pizza
and drops it on the floor, only for it to be pushed under the couch,
and have eated by taylor 2 weeks later
the one that says "we have to go" after some
drunk boy hits on me at my first WSU party,
the one that gives me that look,
when he thinks i'm not looking.
I can honestly see myself in Pullman,
i can. its the perfect little small town.
and if i go there, i'm going to rush,
and fullfill the little dream i've always had to be in a sorority.
i'm going to go to WSU
Spring 2008.
and if i don't like it,
i can transfer somewhere else.
the drives not that bad,
when going the correct way
and not the detour we went on the way there.
i could do it.
it would make me grow up a lot.
and i need that.
i'd have to be a grown up
and take care of myself.
and not rely on those around me.
i think thats what the appeal is,
the fact that its far away from home,
and i'm going to have to grow up
and learn what independence is.
Oh, and that boy.
i need to figure out my priorities.
hes one.
but i'm not sure how big of one he is anymore.
i know what he means now.
and i don't like that person that i am.
i'm going to change,
for him,
for WSU,
for myself..
i need to grow up.
i need to be the mature jessica
all of the time.
my heart knows what it wants,
and i've got to start leading my head
by that.
now,
time for work,
and i feel like i'm goign to puke.
YAY.
but in my heart, they keep saying YES.
why do i REALLY want to go to Pullman.
i loved the school the campus the town.
but would i have honestly given as much consideration if
HE wasn't there?
i want to say no,
WSU is where i belong eduacationaly
but i wonder if thats just where my heart belongs
to a stupid boy
in Pullman.
who shots coyotes on his moped with his bestfriend
skins it
and hangings it on the wall.
the one who gets too drunk to answer the phone when we come
to into town, with no directions to his house,
the one that doesn't eat the crust off his pizza
and drops it on the floor, only for it to be pushed under the couch,
and have eated by taylor 2 weeks later
the one that says "we have to go" after some
drunk boy hits on me at my first WSU party,
the one that gives me that look,
when he thinks i'm not looking.
I can honestly see myself in Pullman,
i can. its the perfect little small town.
and if i go there, i'm going to rush,
and fullfill the little dream i've always had to be in a sorority.
i'm going to go to WSU
Spring 2008.
and if i don't like it,
i can transfer somewhere else.
the drives not that bad,
when going the correct way
and not the detour we went on the way there.
i could do it.
it would make me grow up a lot.
and i need that.
i'd have to be a grown up
and take care of myself.
and not rely on those around me.
i think thats what the appeal is,
the fact that its far away from home,
and i'm going to have to grow up
and learn what independence is.
Oh, and that boy.
i need to figure out my priorities.
hes one.
but i'm not sure how big of one he is anymore.
i know what he means now.
and i don't like that person that i am.
i'm going to change,
for him,
for WSU,
for myself..
i need to grow up.
i need to be the mature jessica
all of the time.
my heart knows what it wants,
and i've got to start leading my head
by that.
now,
time for work,
and i feel like i'm goign to puke.
YAY.