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Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
i don't know.
thats all i can say,
cause i don't.
i don't know what i'm thinking.
i don't know what i'm suppose to think.
am i suppose to just forget about it and move on?
is that what he wants?
its looking as if thats what he's doing,
cause i've yet to get a call.
he layed there for 5 hours next to me.
he held me.
we were going to 'test drive' it.
we were going to be togther.
he told me that he didnt want to hurt me.
bullshit.
cause the moment that it crossed his mind that it would be a good idea to
pick up his cell phone and text my bestfriend what he did,
he broke my heart.
i knew subconsiosly that he was going to break my heart.
why else would i pound bacardi's
and drunk call all the boys in my life.
comfort.
if i'm not careful i could
become addicted.
i get a good feeling when i drink.
it numbs out the world.
i'm not okay.
i'm really really really not.
and we've got school tomorrow.
fake happy smile.
probabally the fakest ever.
i really miss Dustin.
bad.
my heart aches to think about it.
i also realized that i don't have any really
close friends, aside from veronica nicole and miranda.
at least no one else that i can completly depend on.
everyone else would pick someone else over me.
which dosent completly bother me,
cause i would pick my girls over them too.
it would just be nice to be enough.
i'm really done with school.
i need out of here.
i've got a monstropolus hickie.
actually 5, 3 of which cannot be seen.
i've come to the conculsion that every 'boy' that
has given me a hickie,
has broken my heart.
-brent
-christopher
-Ian.
who's next?
i'm not going to sit here and say
"ohh i'm going to be more careful with boys,
i'm not going to date for a while,
i'm going to take it slow
blahhhhbalhhh"
cause we all know thats bullfuckingshit.
i'm going to fall for the
next boy that sweet talks me
fuck i'm so unhappy its redicouls.
i'm going to bed.
laptop countdown, 3 days.
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
I was losing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
i don't know.
thats all i can say,
cause i don't.
i don't know what i'm thinking.
i don't know what i'm suppose to think.
am i suppose to just forget about it and move on?
is that what he wants?
its looking as if thats what he's doing,
cause i've yet to get a call.
he layed there for 5 hours next to me.
he held me.
we were going to 'test drive' it.
we were going to be togther.
he told me that he didnt want to hurt me.
bullshit.
cause the moment that it crossed his mind that it would be a good idea to
pick up his cell phone and text my bestfriend what he did,
he broke my heart.
i knew subconsiosly that he was going to break my heart.
why else would i pound bacardi's
and drunk call all the boys in my life.
comfort.
if i'm not careful i could
become addicted.
i get a good feeling when i drink.
it numbs out the world.
i'm not okay.
i'm really really really not.
and we've got school tomorrow.
fake happy smile.
probabally the fakest ever.
i really miss Dustin.
bad.
my heart aches to think about it.
i also realized that i don't have any really
close friends, aside from veronica nicole and miranda.
at least no one else that i can completly depend on.
everyone else would pick someone else over me.
which dosent completly bother me,
cause i would pick my girls over them too.
it would just be nice to be enough.
i'm really done with school.
i need out of here.
i've got a monstropolus hickie.
actually 5, 3 of which cannot be seen.
i've come to the conculsion that every 'boy' that
has given me a hickie,
has broken my heart.
-brent
-christopher
-Ian.
who's next?
i'm not going to sit here and say
"ohh i'm going to be more careful with boys,
i'm not going to date for a while,
i'm going to take it slow
blahhhhbalhhh"
cause we all know thats bullfuckingshit.
i'm going to fall for the
next boy that sweet talks me
fuck i'm so unhappy its redicouls.
i'm going to bed.
laptop countdown, 3 days.