it's always some excuse.
i am completely stressed right now. to be honest, i just cannot handle everything that i have going on and i would give anything to succumb to my emotions and lay in bed for days. of course, my intuition is stronger than my desires because i would never allow myself to waste valuble time being worthless (according to my standards). just before, i tried to lay down and take a nap because i didn't have the greatest night yesterday and i could not stop thinking about everything else i could be doing. i got so frustrated that i gave up relaxing and wrote my resume for my college applications instead. i don't know if that is pathetic or a testament to my dedication to everything; i don't know if it's good or bad that i care so much about everything; i don't know if it's worth it sometimes.
marching band and it's associated drama has been extremely draining as of late, but i can see a break in the tension in the near future. we have NJ state championships on saturday, GL on sunday, and all-states next weekend, then the season is complete! how sad... i'm going to miss this. then, of course, there is one week in between marching band season annnd swimming. yesss.
i'd love to be a swim team captain and i think that i may have a great chance at becoming one, but can i handle all of the responsibilities associated with such a daunting task? i'm already almost buckling under the pressure of being considered as a captain because of the opinions i hear from others. what do i do?
as if i wasn't already overly occupied with everything i take on, i decided to become the community service chairperson for FBLA. because you know. why not? madrigal is approaching quickly, but i have luckily initiated that ensemble already by distributing music, etc.
and then, while i'm doing every day things, i have a huge decision lying in the midst of my scrambled thoughts - should i apply to boston college early decision? mr. hannaway was quick to tell me to do whatever i feel is best, and i know that it's more selective, but i'd almost rather get it over with now. my application could easily be complete by friday and sent out on monday, but the deadline is tuesday. i'm going to have to research to see if it's still a possibility, i guess. i hate myself for procrastinating.
even though i got home nice and early today because of the power outage, i know that i won't get everything done that i'd like. i need another ten hours or so in every day. kthx.
marching band and it's associated drama has been extremely draining as of late, but i can see a break in the tension in the near future. we have NJ state championships on saturday, GL on sunday, and all-states next weekend, then the season is complete! how sad... i'm going to miss this. then, of course, there is one week in between marching band season annnd swimming. yesss.
i'd love to be a swim team captain and i think that i may have a great chance at becoming one, but can i handle all of the responsibilities associated with such a daunting task? i'm already almost buckling under the pressure of being considered as a captain because of the opinions i hear from others. what do i do?
as if i wasn't already overly occupied with everything i take on, i decided to become the community service chairperson for FBLA. because you know. why not? madrigal is approaching quickly, but i have luckily initiated that ensemble already by distributing music, etc.
and then, while i'm doing every day things, i have a huge decision lying in the midst of my scrambled thoughts - should i apply to boston college early decision? mr. hannaway was quick to tell me to do whatever i feel is best, and i know that it's more selective, but i'd almost rather get it over with now. my application could easily be complete by friday and sent out on monday, but the deadline is tuesday. i'm going to have to research to see if it's still a possibility, i guess. i hate myself for procrastinating.
even though i got home nice and early today because of the power outage, i know that i won't get everything done that i'd like. i need another ten hours or so in every day. kthx.