(no subject)

[heartisempty]

Marisa is about to be a mother within 2 days. That is scary, yet sooooo exciting. I cannot wait to see her become a beautiful mother, and soon to be wife. For years i have heard her talk about wanting a baby, and getting married at a young age. She got it. She got what she has dreamed about for years, and i get to see her become that dream. Im excited for her, yet so scared. She is going to start her own family, and moving on ahead. Its crazy to know that I am getting older. It feels just like yesterday she text me her results of her pregnancy test. I was the first person she told, although deep in my heart i knew she was pregnant. Its one of those things that you just know without her stating it. Up until she took the test, i had kept telling her that she knows her body, and she could really tell if she was pregnant. I loved the fact that she did everything the way she wanted, and not the way that "society" says it should be done. Sure she is doing it all backwards, but who cares! She did it the way she wanted to, and i will always admire that about her. She never once felt regret, or apologetic to anybody.

Why do i always put myself in shitty situations??? Really, i try to always see the good in people, always! No matter how many times people screw me over, i want to believe that they can change, and can do better to me. I just wish i could understand why he was sooo hot, and cold. That really bugs me. . That always fails me. Im so through with putting myself in situations that will eventually get me screwed over. No more misses nice girl.

Dating sucks. As someone told me that both sexes suck, and will suck. I am really seeing this now

I get to visit my sister in a little over two weeks. I am excited, i need some days away.