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It seems like everyone is getting better, and im just gettin worse. I binged alot tonight, and ofcourse the purging came along with that. We all know that it doesnt get up everything though. SO after my first purge, i waited an hour went to the park and jogged 2 miles. I was scared to make my body do any hard work,Ha,like it didnt? lol./Then came home and did not have it on my mind i was gunna do it again, started binging and i purged again. yah this sucks. I know i didnt get up enough. The bag was pretty heavy which made me a bit satisified. I need to say randee wtf is triggering.Its definetly Cira. CIra went away this weekend to washington to see her friends. I text her today wishin her a safe trip,. andill see her when she gets back. i texted her twice, and i got no repsonse. We talked last night briefly online. Im scared she found someone else or she had it with me. I gotta just relax, cus if i dont,im gunna make myself go crazIER* ha.I have a cavity..gurr..I feel it, damnit..nowi gotta try to get an appointment w,.my dentist who hates me. I wanan get my lip pierced so at least i wudnt b able to throw up..haha is that pathetic?i always wanted to get it done.,but i dunoo if my job will let me..(i work in a law firm)..Will see,ill ask/heheh..Im sad..Yah.i am..Sunday im going to that support group at the womens house.I gotta stop this shit,damnit.I dont wanan get sick again like before. Ok..im going to try,im trying damnit i am.Jenn says its like a trap, it definetly is. If i new it would be this hard.damnit. Why am i not good at anything else, but throwing up.
Ok i dont feel well..I better lye down.
Ok i dont feel well..I better lye down.