Confused...so cliche
I have an ex boyfriend
I have a classmate and a guy who I randomly met that like me too...
3 guys, yu think Id be happy? Im far from it! Flattering but makes my head hurt. They're all decent guys, and have good intentions but I don't deserve any of them. I've got issues. And I'm a lil confused...debating whether i like irls or not? And being in this situation doesntmake it easier to decide. Im fucked up. No one knows. (I make sure that this account never reach anyone who knows me) People here aren't that open to these sort of things. And its really difficult not being able to confide this to anyone. I don't knw what to do, how im gonna resolve this. I've been asking his for years. I loved my 2 ex boyfriends but wast xure if i really loved' them you know. In my two relationships I always end up dumping them coz Im not happy and I feel like they deserve more than I can give. I had a crush one time with this girl. Everytime I see her I get nervousand my heart pumps faster. I never saw her again and I didnt even get her name. (im pathetic). Right now, Ive been hanging out with my ex and sometimes he holds my hand, sometimes I let him but I dont hold his hand back, sometimes I subtly remove it fromis grip. I dont have the heart to tell him THAT iM NOT COMFORTABLE WITHTHIS BECAUSE HE'S BEEN GOOD. aND i CONSIDER HIM MY BEST FRIEND SO MAYBE THATS WHY i CANT REALLY LET HIM GO AND still continue to be with him. Im s confused. I dontwant to hurt anybody. Im happy to be with someone and not feel alone but sometimes I feel like Im missing something more. Im so confuse...