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im really destraught. i keep searching for something that just doesnt seem to be there. sadly enough, i dont think it ever was. it makes me sad to think it never was there, nor will it ever be there. but then again im grateful that ive finally realized that my search needs to end now. i wish it didnt have to..
for the last month or so ive been truely happy. everyday was a good day and i was content with the person who i was. but these past few days something in me has changed. i dont feel happy anymore, in fact i feel alot of hatred. i dont know why and i dont know what its against but its there. i want to find that happiness i found a month ago. i want to go back there. i want to be that girl again.
i wish my prince would find me already. i keep thinking im learning something with every relationship, and i am i think. but i just want that feeling that everyone else has seem to have found at one point in time. the only love ive found is what exists between my family and i. which im grateful for that, but its not the same. i know love is real, it has to be. it is so aggravating to me.. why cant i find someone i really love, who loves me back?
for the last month or so ive been truely happy. everyday was a good day and i was content with the person who i was. but these past few days something in me has changed. i dont feel happy anymore, in fact i feel alot of hatred. i dont know why and i dont know what its against but its there. i want to find that happiness i found a month ago. i want to go back there. i want to be that girl again.
i wish my prince would find me already. i keep thinking im learning something with every relationship, and i am i think. but i just want that feeling that everyone else has seem to have found at one point in time. the only love ive found is what exists between my family and i. which im grateful for that, but its not the same. i know love is real, it has to be. it is so aggravating to me.. why cant i find someone i really love, who loves me back?