Back Again
Last time I posted on here was a year ago. So much has changed since then that it's crazy.
The BF I wrote about on June 12th of last year is long gone now. We broke up about a month after that post. We're still good friends. He's changed... more generous and I dunno, just different. He hasn't tried to "get me back" or not that I've noticed. He's a good guy and part of me misses the familiarity that I had with him but I don't think I'd be happy if I got back with him. Though everyone still asks me if I will. That's frustrating.
In the last year I've had three BF's. One was a jerk who kept waffling about whether he wanted to be with me. That lasted three months. I gave him two chances and then I was gone. He still tries to talk to me and it pisses me off.
The next BF... good guy but not willing to TRY a long distance relationship after six months. Yes, six months is not a long time but I was immediately comfortable with him and he was SO good in bed. I wanted to try long distance... no pressure, just giving it a chance. But he wanted to be free to change as his life changed (he was graduating from college and moving to a job three hours away). I get his reasons but it really sucked at the time.
The third BF is not exactly a BF yet... I'm trying not to assume but if feels like we're GF/BF after almost a month of dating. I've never dated someone for so long without it being said we were GF/BF. It feels weird and nice. I don't think he's seeing other people. He goes out on dates with me two, sometimes three, times a week. He's in the military and often works ten and twelve hour shifts and he's often with me on the days he's off. He's generous and kind. He seems perfectly fine going kind of slow. When I started dating him I didn't really want to go very fast (Kiss on first date, GF/BF after about two weeks, & sex shortly after becoming GF/BF). We didn't kiss till the third date, we're not calling each other GF/BF yet and we haven't had sex. definitely slower & nice. :)
In the last year I've failed two more math classes. I decided to get tested for a learning disability after the third time through the same math class. I learned, on my 21st birthday, that I have a (mostly) math specific learning disability. My "processing" ability, when it comes to math, is REALLY low. I am a very smart person and that is what carried me through high school math classes. Once I got to college the math was at a level that I could no longer unconsciously compensate for. The testing showed I was definately quite smart... I wonder what I'd be interested in and doing in college if I had been good at math.
The BF I wrote about on June 12th of last year is long gone now. We broke up about a month after that post. We're still good friends. He's changed... more generous and I dunno, just different. He hasn't tried to "get me back" or not that I've noticed. He's a good guy and part of me misses the familiarity that I had with him but I don't think I'd be happy if I got back with him. Though everyone still asks me if I will. That's frustrating.
In the last year I've had three BF's. One was a jerk who kept waffling about whether he wanted to be with me. That lasted three months. I gave him two chances and then I was gone. He still tries to talk to me and it pisses me off.
The next BF... good guy but not willing to TRY a long distance relationship after six months. Yes, six months is not a long time but I was immediately comfortable with him and he was SO good in bed. I wanted to try long distance... no pressure, just giving it a chance. But he wanted to be free to change as his life changed (he was graduating from college and moving to a job three hours away). I get his reasons but it really sucked at the time.
The third BF is not exactly a BF yet... I'm trying not to assume but if feels like we're GF/BF after almost a month of dating. I've never dated someone for so long without it being said we were GF/BF. It feels weird and nice. I don't think he's seeing other people. He goes out on dates with me two, sometimes three, times a week. He's in the military and often works ten and twelve hour shifts and he's often with me on the days he's off. He's generous and kind. He seems perfectly fine going kind of slow. When I started dating him I didn't really want to go very fast (Kiss on first date, GF/BF after about two weeks, & sex shortly after becoming GF/BF). We didn't kiss till the third date, we're not calling each other GF/BF yet and we haven't had sex. definitely slower & nice. :)
In the last year I've failed two more math classes. I decided to get tested for a learning disability after the third time through the same math class. I learned, on my 21st birthday, that I have a (mostly) math specific learning disability. My "processing" ability, when it comes to math, is REALLY low. I am a very smart person and that is what carried me through high school math classes. Once I got to college the math was at a level that I could no longer unconsciously compensate for. The testing showed I was definately quite smart... I wonder what I'd be interested in and doing in college if I had been good at math.