i think everyone goes through the "hey livejournal" phase..
Simply because you just have nothing to say.
Anyways, I have a few things I'd like to say that I've had on my mind for a while, but just don't have the time to write them in here, or anywhere, and I'd like to do that more often. I want to write more because sometimes my thoughts are interesting, maybe not to you, but to me. Sometimes I just like the way I think, ok?
I like being in college, it makes me feel good about myself, and about the world and everything in it. You really learn a lot, whether you agree with certain things or not, like theoretically. I like to learn things, even if I dread the class, or just simply don't agree with theories. I think it's good to hear both sides of everything, it broadens your horizons and I think it makes you a very well-rounded person. I mean, this is common sense here and I've thought about this many a time. I think it's important to see everyone's point of view, even the one's you totally disagree with, it's just important. Everyone thinks differently and we should all realize that no one will ever agree on anything, so why fight it? Just accept that it's there and deal with it, then move on. Everyone learns from everyone, we all have symbols for different things and if we all share them with each other-eventually, we learn something, good or bad. Point is-we shape each other whether we realize it or not, we influence each other, sometimes people we don't even know. Ultimately, I think it makes each and everyone of us a better person. It's just one huge circle of life(thank you Lion King) and hopefully one day we all might get each other. I probably won't be around to witness it, though. P.S-while on the subject of College, i'm transferring to SUNY Oneonta, near Ithaca and Syracuse a little. I'm excited. :)
So I went to my Aunts house for her 40th birthday, and it was glorious. I love her and my cousins. They are the only side of my moms family I talk to, unfortunately..but it's better than nothing at all. I stayed all weekend because I miss family, I don't have a huge one and I wish I did, because from experiencing others huge families, it's so fun and loving. I love love. LOVE. My cousin Nikki and I had talks about our grandma that past away. We've had some serious talks, but this was the most serious by far. This talk lasted about 3 hours and I loved every minute of it. I felt so close to her, and I liked that feeling. Even if it was 530am. We both realized that we get sad when it's Christmas time, because that's when she passed. Then we talked about how proud she would be of us..for at least surviving through our family. Our family is a bunch of stubborn crazy people who fight a lot. I'm glad my cousin and I still talk. I like her, and I plan on spending a lot more time with her. We learn a lot from each other.
Alright-I've reached my blab stage, but I like it, sometimes blab stages are good. I like when people write long meaningful things, it's nice to read.
So i'll continue with the family thing-the next day we talked to my Aunt about the grandma conversation. This is where I started feeling really good, real good.
My Aunt also said how proud my grandma would be of us, especially me because I made it to college-first one out of my moms side of the family. I mean, now a days it's normal to go to college. So she'd be extra proud. I'm glad my Aunt said this to me, it made me feel so good, and it gives me that driving force to continue and do as much/as good as I can in life. RIP-Grandma. I love you. I know you're reading this.
I love everything right now. I'm glad about family and college, and just everything around me, it feels so good. GOOD.
Also, I wanted to talk about my heart and how it feels things, and how I can feel it lately. When I think about some things sometimes it just hurts my head and I get a headache or something lame. Lately I feel things in my heart, and then it goes through my whole body. I'm not quite sure what it is, but it feels good/bad at the same time. It's so confusing! But I like it. I like to feel through the heart. It's like this shooting-ish pain that starts right in my heart/chest area, then goes into my arms and then my fingertips, other times through my legs. I get it when I think about Lindsay or my mom, or family, or my closest friends and all the amazing times we've had and how LIFE GOES BY TO FAST. It hurts when I think about the past, but then it feels good when I think about now, so that explains the good/bad pain in the heart.
I'm going to leave you with that and hopefully someone will give me some feedback, because I'd like feedback for this one.
LOVE.
Anyways, I have a few things I'd like to say that I've had on my mind for a while, but just don't have the time to write them in here, or anywhere, and I'd like to do that more often. I want to write more because sometimes my thoughts are interesting, maybe not to you, but to me. Sometimes I just like the way I think, ok?
I like being in college, it makes me feel good about myself, and about the world and everything in it. You really learn a lot, whether you agree with certain things or not, like theoretically. I like to learn things, even if I dread the class, or just simply don't agree with theories. I think it's good to hear both sides of everything, it broadens your horizons and I think it makes you a very well-rounded person. I mean, this is common sense here and I've thought about this many a time. I think it's important to see everyone's point of view, even the one's you totally disagree with, it's just important. Everyone thinks differently and we should all realize that no one will ever agree on anything, so why fight it? Just accept that it's there and deal with it, then move on. Everyone learns from everyone, we all have symbols for different things and if we all share them with each other-eventually, we learn something, good or bad. Point is-we shape each other whether we realize it or not, we influence each other, sometimes people we don't even know. Ultimately, I think it makes each and everyone of us a better person. It's just one huge circle of life(thank you Lion King) and hopefully one day we all might get each other. I probably won't be around to witness it, though. P.S-while on the subject of College, i'm transferring to SUNY Oneonta, near Ithaca and Syracuse a little. I'm excited. :)
So I went to my Aunts house for her 40th birthday, and it was glorious. I love her and my cousins. They are the only side of my moms family I talk to, unfortunately..but it's better than nothing at all. I stayed all weekend because I miss family, I don't have a huge one and I wish I did, because from experiencing others huge families, it's so fun and loving. I love love. LOVE. My cousin Nikki and I had talks about our grandma that past away. We've had some serious talks, but this was the most serious by far. This talk lasted about 3 hours and I loved every minute of it. I felt so close to her, and I liked that feeling. Even if it was 530am. We both realized that we get sad when it's Christmas time, because that's when she passed. Then we talked about how proud she would be of us..for at least surviving through our family. Our family is a bunch of stubborn crazy people who fight a lot. I'm glad my cousin and I still talk. I like her, and I plan on spending a lot more time with her. We learn a lot from each other.
Alright-I've reached my blab stage, but I like it, sometimes blab stages are good. I like when people write long meaningful things, it's nice to read.
So i'll continue with the family thing-the next day we talked to my Aunt about the grandma conversation. This is where I started feeling really good, real good.
My Aunt also said how proud my grandma would be of us, especially me because I made it to college-first one out of my moms side of the family. I mean, now a days it's normal to go to college. So she'd be extra proud. I'm glad my Aunt said this to me, it made me feel so good, and it gives me that driving force to continue and do as much/as good as I can in life. RIP-Grandma. I love you. I know you're reading this.
I love everything right now. I'm glad about family and college, and just everything around me, it feels so good. GOOD.
Also, I wanted to talk about my heart and how it feels things, and how I can feel it lately. When I think about some things sometimes it just hurts my head and I get a headache or something lame. Lately I feel things in my heart, and then it goes through my whole body. I'm not quite sure what it is, but it feels good/bad at the same time. It's so confusing! But I like it. I like to feel through the heart. It's like this shooting-ish pain that starts right in my heart/chest area, then goes into my arms and then my fingertips, other times through my legs. I get it when I think about Lindsay or my mom, or family, or my closest friends and all the amazing times we've had and how LIFE GOES BY TO FAST. It hurts when I think about the past, but then it feels good when I think about now, so that explains the good/bad pain in the heart.
I'm going to leave you with that and hopefully someone will give me some feedback, because I'd like feedback for this one.
LOVE.