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but something makes me carry on, it's difficult to understand
" i do it for the drugs. i do it just to feel alive. i do it for the love, that i get from the bottom of a bottle."
right now, i feel nothing. nothing at all. i was depressed earlier, but that feeling has left me. i feel soo numb right now. i hate this feeling.. this is that feeling i had since i was like 8y/o when i started cutting. i don't know why i feel this way. i just need Brian right now. i'll see him in 2 periods. (goysh it seems so far away) ah well, i'll be fine soon enough. i guess it's fine since i'm not feeling anything right now, better than being all sad and depressed i guess..
" i do it for the drugs. i do it just to feel alive. i do it for the love, that i get from the bottom of a bottle."
right now, i feel nothing. nothing at all. i was depressed earlier, but that feeling has left me. i feel soo numb right now. i hate this feeling.. this is that feeling i had since i was like 8y/o when i started cutting. i don't know why i feel this way. i just need Brian right now. i'll see him in 2 periods. (goysh it seems so far away) ah well, i'll be fine soon enough. i guess it's fine since i'm not feeling anything right now, better than being all sad and depressed i guess..