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It'sbeen awhile since I posted anything. Seems like it's been awhile since I've thought for myself. I havent been reading much since i'vebeen here which is weird because i love to read. I miss college. I miss going to class and learning new things, I even miss studying for tests and getting panic attacks, even though I usually did just fine and didn't need ot worry myself. I guess it's easy in the beginning of relationships to fall into a sense of complacency where your whole world is this tiny little bubble that two people live in.. but eventually real life hits and if you want to survive, and make the relationship not only work but be successful you have to take on the real world and all it's challenges. Both together and apart.
I think Doug and I have been pretty decent about taking on the stuff together, where we are struggling is the solo stuff. I've stopped reading, stopped writing..and almost forgot about school entirely. He's not making the changes he wants to among other unknown (to me) things.
I don't say that in the sense that i'm unhappy or that it's not working well, it's just a general observation. I'm actually brilliantly happy. I mean sure we might have our daily fight, and i don't always get my way, but now compared to 3 months ago is bliss. Im learning a lot about myself and relationships. Coming against new "relationship terrain" if you will that I never experienced. Its like the old preaching about us needing to climb the mountain and not justgo around it, but sometimes we need to go around, to get it. Sometimes we don't get it the first time, and I think that's okay. If we got everything right the first time it wouldn't make actually "GETTING IT" so incredible.
I'm 26 and I want to get it.
I think i'm getting there ;-)
Bed Time, I'll ttyl
I think Doug and I have been pretty decent about taking on the stuff together, where we are struggling is the solo stuff. I've stopped reading, stopped writing..and almost forgot about school entirely. He's not making the changes he wants to among other unknown (to me) things.
I don't say that in the sense that i'm unhappy or that it's not working well, it's just a general observation. I'm actually brilliantly happy. I mean sure we might have our daily fight, and i don't always get my way, but now compared to 3 months ago is bliss. Im learning a lot about myself and relationships. Coming against new "relationship terrain" if you will that I never experienced. Its like the old preaching about us needing to climb the mountain and not justgo around it, but sometimes we need to go around, to get it. Sometimes we don't get it the first time, and I think that's okay. If we got everything right the first time it wouldn't make actually "GETTING IT" so incredible.
I'm 26 and I want to get it.
I think i'm getting there ;-)
Bed Time, I'll ttyl