Pretending..
<><>I hate pretending to be happy when I'm miserable inside..All the things that bother me about my life I set aside..and then all of a sudden I sit and think for like 5min and get really upset...I've been pretending for a long time to be alot happier than I truly am..I mean I am a pretty happy person..but no here i want to be..or no where where people really think I am..I want to be done pretending but then I wouldnt be myself...I dont kno any other way to act...What Should I do?! Keep pretending so that noone can really tell..and just be miserable..Or should I act like I really feel..probably lose all my friends for being such a downer, and still be miserable?!! Either way I lose...which makes me upset in its own way....I JUST CANT WIN!