This is gonna be a long one...
Oh, the neverending drama.
I don't even know what to write in here anymore because I'm always afraid I'm going to offend somebody or piss someone off.
But now that I think about it, the only people that will be offended by the stuff I say in here are people that I could care less about.
So to those few, certain people-
Eat your hearts out. :-)
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Um, yeah.
I love the new friends I have made these past few weeks.
I've always been a "first-impression" kinda girl- if I don't get a good feeling from you the first time we meet, I pretty much write you off as unworthy of my friendship.
Certain people have made me see beyond that.
They know who they are.
I love you and thank you.
On the same token...
I, as well as many other people, have realized that some people aren't really as they seem the first time you meet them.
It sucks the first time you realize that maybe this seemingly wonderful, straight-forward, honest person isn't as wonderful, straight-forward, or honest as you had previously thought. They are, in fact, the opposite; some might even call them sneaky, deceitful, and vindictive.
Speaking for myself, though, I would rather find these things out sooner than later.
Maybe that's just me.
I don't know.
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The whole situation that went down tonite between all of you guys really bothered me for some reason and I wasn't too sure why.
Maybe it was the fact of really good friends getting into arguments over people or situations that probably never should have escalated to that level.
What I really think it was, though, was feeling a sense of deja vu.
Only not quite.
Here's a situation-
"You're sitting around with your buddies and they start bad-mouthing someone that you're pretty good friends with. You defend this friend to the maximum, because that is what you do for a friend. You even get into arguments and an almost fistfight with one of your best friends in the process of defending this other person."
The same situation (almost)-
"You're sitting around with your buddies and they start bad-mouthing someone that you're pretty good friends with. You sit back and listen- not joining in on the bad-mouthing, and yet not defending your "friend". You justify the lack of defending by simply saying, "I didn't join in. They're my friends and they're entitled to their own opinions."
Hmmm.
Now I know the second situation happened awhile ago.
I guess it just bothers me that you would go to that extent for one friend and not the other.
Were we not as good of friends as I thought?
Or did you also believe all of the lies they were spreading around, even though you swore to me that you didn't?
I really don't know why this bothered me so much, especially since we're not even that close anymore.
Maybe it's just because at one point, I considered you to be one of my really good friends. My original Douchebag.
I'm not saying this because I'm pissed at you.
I'm just confused by this whole double standard.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just being stupid.
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School is stressing me out.
Work is stressing me out.
My parents are stressing me out.
My lack of money is stressing me out.
If it wasn't for my wonderful boyfriend, I would be pulling my hair out right now.
Even though I know you probably won't get a chance to read this, due to your lack of the internet, I love you, Paul. And thank you for keeping me sane. :-*
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Damn it- another negative entry.
I swear, the next entry will be happy...
Or not. :-)
The only reason this thing is so negative all of the time is because this is my way to vent.
You dont "vent" about happy stuff. :-)
Chances are, I'll probably get a lot of shit for this entry.
But that's ok.
I would like to hear what you guys have to say.
:-)
I'm out.
I don't even know what to write in here anymore because I'm always afraid I'm going to offend somebody or piss someone off.
But now that I think about it, the only people that will be offended by the stuff I say in here are people that I could care less about.
So to those few, certain people-
Eat your hearts out. :-)
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Um, yeah.
I love the new friends I have made these past few weeks.
I've always been a "first-impression" kinda girl- if I don't get a good feeling from you the first time we meet, I pretty much write you off as unworthy of my friendship.
Certain people have made me see beyond that.
They know who they are.
I love you and thank you.
On the same token...
I, as well as many other people, have realized that some people aren't really as they seem the first time you meet them.
It sucks the first time you realize that maybe this seemingly wonderful, straight-forward, honest person isn't as wonderful, straight-forward, or honest as you had previously thought. They are, in fact, the opposite; some might even call them sneaky, deceitful, and vindictive.
Speaking for myself, though, I would rather find these things out sooner than later.
Maybe that's just me.
I don't know.
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The whole situation that went down tonite between all of you guys really bothered me for some reason and I wasn't too sure why.
Maybe it was the fact of really good friends getting into arguments over people or situations that probably never should have escalated to that level.
What I really think it was, though, was feeling a sense of deja vu.
Only not quite.
Here's a situation-
"You're sitting around with your buddies and they start bad-mouthing someone that you're pretty good friends with. You defend this friend to the maximum, because that is what you do for a friend. You even get into arguments and an almost fistfight with one of your best friends in the process of defending this other person."
The same situation (almost)-
"You're sitting around with your buddies and they start bad-mouthing someone that you're pretty good friends with. You sit back and listen- not joining in on the bad-mouthing, and yet not defending your "friend". You justify the lack of defending by simply saying, "I didn't join in. They're my friends and they're entitled to their own opinions."
Hmmm.
Now I know the second situation happened awhile ago.
I guess it just bothers me that you would go to that extent for one friend and not the other.
Were we not as good of friends as I thought?
Or did you also believe all of the lies they were spreading around, even though you swore to me that you didn't?
I really don't know why this bothered me so much, especially since we're not even that close anymore.
Maybe it's just because at one point, I considered you to be one of my really good friends. My original Douchebag.
I'm not saying this because I'm pissed at you.
I'm just confused by this whole double standard.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just being stupid.
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School is stressing me out.
Work is stressing me out.
My parents are stressing me out.
My lack of money is stressing me out.
If it wasn't for my wonderful boyfriend, I would be pulling my hair out right now.
Even though I know you probably won't get a chance to read this, due to your lack of the internet, I love you, Paul. And thank you for keeping me sane. :-*
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Damn it- another negative entry.
I swear, the next entry will be happy...
Or not. :-)
The only reason this thing is so negative all of the time is because this is my way to vent.
You dont "vent" about happy stuff. :-)
Chances are, I'll probably get a lot of shit for this entry.
But that's ok.
I would like to hear what you guys have to say.
:-)
I'm out.