Soooo tired..
This two week I've been through a very tough days..
Well,, actually,, I have to enjoy it because it is my last task as a final-college-student..
This is my 4th years tough..
:-)
But I dunno.. This week feels so tiring,, somehow boresome,, and I just want to getaway from it..
Actually the task is simple.. I have to find a patient in a hospital ( where I do my internship) as my prior cases.. This patient ( with all of her or his nutrition problem) will be presented in front of supervisor,, clinical supervisor,, and the doctor in charge..
So I get a patient,, and she's go home after 2 days..
Did I mention I have to do a monitoring to our patient..?
When I know it,, I became very confused and afraid.. I am so afraid that my gastric acid going up to my throat and mouth,, causing a nausea and pain in my mouth.. I search again,, but..
but..
but,, I just lost my soul.. I feel like I'm losing hope.. I just want to go home.. I miss my dad,, mom,, and younger bro..
When I try to think that's everything gonna be okay,, honestly,, my brain reject this idea.. How THIS be OKAY..??????
And now I cry..
Great..
I pray to God that He'll give me a strength so that I will stay sane..
I'm serious.. Especially this week,, I almost go insane and rather die than do this kinda thing AGAIN..
I'll do my best..
I will think my parents and my future..
Oh God,, give me strength..
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