Thoughts and Introspections
Looks like for 2008 we'll only get to see my mom 3 times. She came once in May, will be here in June or July, and then we'll see her when we go down to TX in December. Gosh that stinks.
I saw a picture the other day of a girl about my age or a little younger. She looked so incredibly happy, like she was just experiencing the happiest moment of her life and was reveling in being so incredibly happy. I can't remember a time in my life when I've been ecstatically, glowingly happy. I was happy on my wedding day - but underneath I was frustrated with the Rabbi being late, upset about the caterer, etc. I was thrilled when I had my babies, but also incredibly physically exhausted and both nervous and excited about the future to come. I don't know. I just, I can't revel in the moment. Any accomplishment is marred by the little voice chirping "so what next?".
I saw a picture the other day of a girl about my age or a little younger. She looked so incredibly happy, like she was just experiencing the happiest moment of her life and was reveling in being so incredibly happy. I can't remember a time in my life when I've been ecstatically, glowingly happy. I was happy on my wedding day - but underneath I was frustrated with the Rabbi being late, upset about the caterer, etc. I was thrilled when I had my babies, but also incredibly physically exhausted and both nervous and excited about the future to come. I don't know. I just, I can't revel in the moment. Any accomplishment is marred by the little voice chirping "so what next?".