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the look
it makes me feel like i'm an inch tall
it makes me feel transparent
it hurts
it makes me feel like i can't do anything right
i didn't realize how much i hated this look
and was scared of it
it's been here since i've been here
it happens every day
that glare
i don't like it
i hate feeling like a failure
i'm sick of it
someday it will go away
maybe i will miss it
maybe it's what motivates me
whatever it is...it will always be a look that i hate