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so tomorrow is Halloween.
i am going trick or treating and that should be fun
i will be a fairy :-)
ummm...right now i dont care about anything
well in school at least
i like having a social life
and i know that is not all that college is about, but that's all i want it to be about
i want to drop out of college, get married, and have kids
right now i am listening to christmas music and all i can dream about is sitting around the christmas tree with my kids and having a great family dinner with a turkey and some apple pie
seeing my kid's faces light up when they get just what they wanted for christmas...
i know that i am only 19, but i can't wait for this
i know that life isn't all hunkeydory but i want this to happen so badly
i guess christmas music just brings back a bunch of good happy memories
well back to reality...i pretty much suck at life and hate myself...everyone tells me that it is ok...and that i shouldn't hate myself for it...but i do. this just isn't like me...i can't stop thinking about it or anything. right now i am just really frustrated. i should be happy right now...but i'm not. i dont know what else to say...
i am going trick or treating and that should be fun
i will be a fairy :-)
ummm...right now i dont care about anything
well in school at least
i like having a social life
and i know that is not all that college is about, but that's all i want it to be about
i want to drop out of college, get married, and have kids
right now i am listening to christmas music and all i can dream about is sitting around the christmas tree with my kids and having a great family dinner with a turkey and some apple pie
seeing my kid's faces light up when they get just what they wanted for christmas...
i know that i am only 19, but i can't wait for this
i know that life isn't all hunkeydory but i want this to happen so badly
i guess christmas music just brings back a bunch of good happy memories
well back to reality...i pretty much suck at life and hate myself...everyone tells me that it is ok...and that i shouldn't hate myself for it...but i do. this just isn't like me...i can't stop thinking about it or anything. right now i am just really frustrated. i should be happy right now...but i'm not. i dont know what else to say...