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Spring Break has to be the most boring thing ever. When do classes start back again? I miss having stuff to do and ways to keep my mind of off hi-- stuff. I'm going crazy sitting here alone and DANGIT I MISS MY BIG SISTER! LARXY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE IN VEGAS? XIGBAR SAYS YOU ARE BUT I'M NOT QUITE SURE I BELIEVE HIM!!
I talked to my parents this morning. It's amazing, they were both in the same room and had me on speaker phone. That's the first time that's happened in quite a while. Of course, I could tell from the background noise that they were in his office cause I heard the voice of his aide. I told them about my mother showing up and dad sounded beyond pissed at the fact that she showed up wanting money for drugs. I'm not sure why he sounded so surprised, he knew my mother was an addict when he and mom adopted me. And then I told them about Namine... they both sounded so happy about me finding a sister that I never knew I had.
Though, mom did sound a little sad when she was asking me for details about Namine. I know how much she and dad wanted a child of their own, I remember the tears everytime she miscarried... She once told me that she never meant for me to be raised as an only child, but it was about that time that Dad was elected Mayor and she claims that their lives were too hectic for another child. Part of me wonders if that was when their marital problems started. They always looked happy on the outside, but I wonder if they were staying together just for me... I mean, dad was rarely ever home. He'd come home after I was in bed and be gone to work when I woke up... guess that was his way of avoiding mom or something. And then when I left home, I guess they couldn't take living the lie anymore.
Don't get me wrong, it still hurts that they're not together anymore, but they sound happier. And that is something I can always live with. Though, I will admit that between them getting a divorce and other things that have happened lately... it really makes me doubt marriage. Is it even worth it? More and more marriages are ending in divorce these days and it just makes me think that marriage is going to become a thing of the past. When I was a little girl I used to have these plans for a fairy tale wedding with my prince charming and a huge princess style dress... now, I'm not even sure I ever want to get married. No, make that I'm positive that I never want to get married.
I talked to my parents this morning. It's amazing, they were both in the same room and had me on speaker phone. That's the first time that's happened in quite a while. Of course, I could tell from the background noise that they were in his office cause I heard the voice of his aide. I told them about my mother showing up and dad sounded beyond pissed at the fact that she showed up wanting money for drugs. I'm not sure why he sounded so surprised, he knew my mother was an addict when he and mom adopted me. And then I told them about Namine... they both sounded so happy about me finding a sister that I never knew I had.
Though, mom did sound a little sad when she was asking me for details about Namine. I know how much she and dad wanted a child of their own, I remember the tears everytime she miscarried... She once told me that she never meant for me to be raised as an only child, but it was about that time that Dad was elected Mayor and she claims that their lives were too hectic for another child. Part of me wonders if that was when their marital problems started. They always looked happy on the outside, but I wonder if they were staying together just for me... I mean, dad was rarely ever home. He'd come home after I was in bed and be gone to work when I woke up... guess that was his way of avoiding mom or something. And then when I left home, I guess they couldn't take living the lie anymore.
Don't get me wrong, it still hurts that they're not together anymore, but they sound happier. And that is something I can always live with. Though, I will admit that between them getting a divorce and other things that have happened lately... it really makes me doubt marriage. Is it even worth it? More and more marriages are ending in divorce these days and it just makes me think that marriage is going to become a thing of the past. When I was a little girl I used to have these plans for a fairy tale wedding with my prince charming and a huge princess style dress... now, I'm not even sure I ever want to get married. No, make that I'm positive that I never want to get married.