updates.......get excited.
well judging by how often i write in here, one can assume that i dont really remember all that i was going to say or ment to say or even care to say on this "waste of my time" journal that before held every emotion i could ever feel. now is just a pain in my ass when i read it. *grunt*
at any rate, my life thus far in a nut shell:
paul and i broke up about feb time give or take. he broke up w/ me bc of a milion reasons, but w/e to be honest. i was looking for a way out and i was purposely getting on his nerves and being a bitch (more so then normal, crazy i know) just so he would get fed up and leave. mission accomplished.
around that time, closer to valentines day, diana and i went to orlando so i could go to ibar for their industrial night, and on valentines day no less. hott. well before we were going to orlando, about a few days before i was talking to this guy named, james. he was a regular at the club and i knew him from that and he actually went to PBA but i dont think i remember him from there anyway, but w/e. he was dating a crazy ass girl while going to the club, so thats really how i met him. at any rate, at first i was just like "hmmm he's cute, but let me chill out b4 i jump into anything..." well we all know how i work, and yea that idea was cute. *rolls eyes*
so i was talking to him a lot online and a little in the club, mainly bc paul was being a little all up in my shit, at the time. so we talked mostly online. at any rate, we got to know each other pretty well over the course of a few days via internet. and the day before di and i left for orlando, i asked him to come over and cuddle w/ me. so he did. and believe it or not, that really is ALL we did, cuddle. it was beautiful. and it was weird bc we fit like a puzzle. blah blah ok so the next day was the day we left for orlando. i asked james if he could come to breakfast w/ the both of us and he said yes, so we all went to breakfast and i was looking at him from across the table thinking "gosh, there's something about him that totally makes my heart drop....holy fuck i just met him...." so we ate and we were getting ready to leave for orlando and i started asking him to come w/ us, i begged even. bc im pathetic.
long story short, he at the last min, ended up meeting us up in orlando. and it really really ment a lot to me and i was surprised that he did that, since we really didnt know much about each other. it was nice. and we all had fun in orlando, we got to know each other and it was one of the best times ive ever had. :)
after orlando i was feeling all crazy about him, and him and i had a talk in HT a few days after basically saying that neither one of us should be in a relationship, and even though that made me want to cry, i had to respect it, bc i cared for him that much.
however, weeks went by and we found each other falling more and more for each other. and here's where we sit. granted we're not "official" but as of right now, im happy and from what he says he is too. i know that i want more as far as being official but i mean, i guess time will only tell.
that is my life thus far. i applied to schools again, about 5 this time. and ive only heard back from 1 so far. *grunt* time will only tell on that too i guess.
until next time....
at any rate, my life thus far in a nut shell:
paul and i broke up about feb time give or take. he broke up w/ me bc of a milion reasons, but w/e to be honest. i was looking for a way out and i was purposely getting on his nerves and being a bitch (more so then normal, crazy i know) just so he would get fed up and leave. mission accomplished.
around that time, closer to valentines day, diana and i went to orlando so i could go to ibar for their industrial night, and on valentines day no less. hott. well before we were going to orlando, about a few days before i was talking to this guy named, james. he was a regular at the club and i knew him from that and he actually went to PBA but i dont think i remember him from there anyway, but w/e. he was dating a crazy ass girl while going to the club, so thats really how i met him. at any rate, at first i was just like "hmmm he's cute, but let me chill out b4 i jump into anything..." well we all know how i work, and yea that idea was cute. *rolls eyes*
so i was talking to him a lot online and a little in the club, mainly bc paul was being a little all up in my shit, at the time. so we talked mostly online. at any rate, we got to know each other pretty well over the course of a few days via internet. and the day before di and i left for orlando, i asked him to come over and cuddle w/ me. so he did. and believe it or not, that really is ALL we did, cuddle. it was beautiful. and it was weird bc we fit like a puzzle. blah blah ok so the next day was the day we left for orlando. i asked james if he could come to breakfast w/ the both of us and he said yes, so we all went to breakfast and i was looking at him from across the table thinking "gosh, there's something about him that totally makes my heart drop....holy fuck i just met him...." so we ate and we were getting ready to leave for orlando and i started asking him to come w/ us, i begged even. bc im pathetic.
long story short, he at the last min, ended up meeting us up in orlando. and it really really ment a lot to me and i was surprised that he did that, since we really didnt know much about each other. it was nice. and we all had fun in orlando, we got to know each other and it was one of the best times ive ever had. :)
after orlando i was feeling all crazy about him, and him and i had a talk in HT a few days after basically saying that neither one of us should be in a relationship, and even though that made me want to cry, i had to respect it, bc i cared for him that much.
however, weeks went by and we found each other falling more and more for each other. and here's where we sit. granted we're not "official" but as of right now, im happy and from what he says he is too. i know that i want more as far as being official but i mean, i guess time will only tell.
that is my life thus far. i applied to schools again, about 5 this time. and ive only heard back from 1 so far. *grunt* time will only tell on that too i guess.
until next time....