2006?
So, let's just say, 2005 wasn't the greatest year of mine. Getting my heart broken. Thoma's dying. Finding out terrible things about my parents. ETC. It just wasn't a good year.
2005 started out wonderfully. I had a boyfriend that I was falling in love with, my friends were good. Life wasn't stressful. And the year turned out pretty crappy. 2006? It has started out terribly. The first day of 2006 left me in tears feeling like crap. For so many different reasons. Today wasn't great, but it wasn't as bad. I'm going to try this theory: that maybe since 2005 started out good, it was really just a disguise. It's the same way for 2006. It started out crappy, but it's like saying. Hey, no.. this year's gonna be good. Just wait.
I have nothing to complain about in my life.. well, okay.. maybe a few things. But that's all right, nothing monsterous. And I hate when I get whiny about things that I can't really control.
I wish I didn't have my heart broken in March 2005. I wish Thoma's didn't get lukemia and die in October 2005. Because those things hurt me a lot. They made me cry a lot. But I cannot change them. They happened. And they have made me who I am. Maybe my heart is harder than it was before, but that's okay. It's preparing me for the "real world."
I've stopped praying as much as I have in the past, and that hurts me. And last night, I was crying about it. I didn't feel worthy enough for God's love, but He's still there.. just waiting for me to come back to Him.
I want this year to be good. I really do. I want to be happy.
My resolutions?
1. Stay focused on school.
2. Have fun with my friends. Make new ones, too.
3. Learn an instrument.
4. Travel.
5. Turn 18 and have a blast doing so.
6. Graduate in NHS, 5th or so to walk.
7. Put my faith in God in everything I do.
8. Don't care about boys. Don't give boys my heart unless they really deserve it. Wait for one that will treat me special. 9 months going strong, and I'm okay with that. God will give me a boy when He knows I'm ready for one.
9. Be me. Be only me.
10. Smile. Laugh. Love. Live.
Top 10 things to accomplish in 2006, and that's just the beginning.
I love you all so very much. If I haven't told you recently, thanks for being my friend. Thanks for being there for me. Monica, thanks for being my best friend. I love you very much.
See ya'll tomorrow. It's the year we graduate. Let's make the best of it.
2005 started out wonderfully. I had a boyfriend that I was falling in love with, my friends were good. Life wasn't stressful. And the year turned out pretty crappy. 2006? It has started out terribly. The first day of 2006 left me in tears feeling like crap. For so many different reasons. Today wasn't great, but it wasn't as bad. I'm going to try this theory: that maybe since 2005 started out good, it was really just a disguise. It's the same way for 2006. It started out crappy, but it's like saying. Hey, no.. this year's gonna be good. Just wait.
I have nothing to complain about in my life.. well, okay.. maybe a few things. But that's all right, nothing monsterous. And I hate when I get whiny about things that I can't really control.
I wish I didn't have my heart broken in March 2005. I wish Thoma's didn't get lukemia and die in October 2005. Because those things hurt me a lot. They made me cry a lot. But I cannot change them. They happened. And they have made me who I am. Maybe my heart is harder than it was before, but that's okay. It's preparing me for the "real world."
I've stopped praying as much as I have in the past, and that hurts me. And last night, I was crying about it. I didn't feel worthy enough for God's love, but He's still there.. just waiting for me to come back to Him.
I want this year to be good. I really do. I want to be happy.
My resolutions?
1. Stay focused on school.
2. Have fun with my friends. Make new ones, too.
3. Learn an instrument.
4. Travel.
5. Turn 18 and have a blast doing so.
6. Graduate in NHS, 5th or so to walk.
7. Put my faith in God in everything I do.
8. Don't care about boys. Don't give boys my heart unless they really deserve it. Wait for one that will treat me special. 9 months going strong, and I'm okay with that. God will give me a boy when He knows I'm ready for one.
9. Be me. Be only me.
10. Smile. Laugh. Love. Live.
Top 10 things to accomplish in 2006, and that's just the beginning.
I love you all so very much. If I haven't told you recently, thanks for being my friend. Thanks for being there for me. Monica, thanks for being my best friend. I love you very much.
See ya'll tomorrow. It's the year we graduate. Let's make the best of it.