This isn't a life.
Dear God Goddess whatever the fuck is out there
I cant stand you you are a cruel seflcentered son of a @##@ you dont have any feelings and take pleasure in watching me suffer dont you!?!?! You and takeing a chisil and clipping away parts of my soul and heart a little by a little you started way back in 8th grade and are still going strong are you you cant wait till you push me over the freaking edge can you!? your sitting there laughing like that mean kid witha magnifing glass chasing a poor little insect following it closely until finally the little insect has no place left to run and they give up and let themself be killed byt he manification of the rays of the son, me being that poor insect. If you are "God" as many people believe wtf happened to the all caring and loving God who supposeively never gives out more than one can handle?!?!!? if thats the "God" who really exists GUESS WHAT I FUCKING CANT HANDLE ANYMORE I CANT KEEP ON GOING LIKE THIS I break down crying about once every day where I collapse and cant move anything where i jsut lay there limp sobbing praying for someone to help me for someone to save me from this pain, every little bit of happiness i experience comes at a price that I can't bare to pay every little bit of it you know I think your some sick dcemented freak I thought you were supposed to be some huge caring person, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL HAVE I EVER DONE TO DESERVE TO BE FORSAKEN LIKE THIS!?! I MUST OF BEEN ONE HELL OF A ROTTEN PERSON IN MY PREVIOUS LIFE that is if they exist because im fucking certain that I havne't done anything this god damn horriable!!!!!!!! I cant take this anymore dear god someone please I cant take the constant pain in my heart and in my soul of all these memories and dreams that i have had that i will never be able to accomplish, thsi would all be different if my nana was hear and god knows how close i was to her and that the one thing tht would break me quicker than anythin else in the world would be to take her from me and that monster took her from me when i needed her the god damn most
How can someoen be that fucking cruel to take away the one person who i knew woudl be there for me the one thing that kept me moving everyday He just ripped her from me and the fucking doctors they knew there were other medicinces that they coudl give her to save her life even i know of them and THEY NEVER FUCKING GAVE THEM TO HERR THE GOD DAMN FUCKING ASSHOLES!! *Crys* I need my name I can't take this separation without her I need her she is the only one in my family who truely accepted me for me... she knew move about me than some of my friends even.. Nana... I can't live without her... Sometimes I wish I could see her again and feel her hug and hear her laugh... if it ment me being dead...
Without my nana I feel like a souless being walking around. She was my life, most of my heart, my strength, shoulder, my will, pride, and my future... I cant be without her... Nana I love you miss you and need you..
I don't think I can live without her.
I cant stand you you are a cruel seflcentered son of a @##@ you dont have any feelings and take pleasure in watching me suffer dont you!?!?! You and takeing a chisil and clipping away parts of my soul and heart a little by a little you started way back in 8th grade and are still going strong are you you cant wait till you push me over the freaking edge can you!? your sitting there laughing like that mean kid witha magnifing glass chasing a poor little insect following it closely until finally the little insect has no place left to run and they give up and let themself be killed byt he manification of the rays of the son, me being that poor insect. If you are "God" as many people believe wtf happened to the all caring and loving God who supposeively never gives out more than one can handle?!?!!? if thats the "God" who really exists GUESS WHAT I FUCKING CANT HANDLE ANYMORE I CANT KEEP ON GOING LIKE THIS I break down crying about once every day where I collapse and cant move anything where i jsut lay there limp sobbing praying for someone to help me for someone to save me from this pain, every little bit of happiness i experience comes at a price that I can't bare to pay every little bit of it you know I think your some sick dcemented freak I thought you were supposed to be some huge caring person, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL HAVE I EVER DONE TO DESERVE TO BE FORSAKEN LIKE THIS!?! I MUST OF BEEN ONE HELL OF A ROTTEN PERSON IN MY PREVIOUS LIFE that is if they exist because im fucking certain that I havne't done anything this god damn horriable!!!!!!!! I cant take this anymore dear god someone please I cant take the constant pain in my heart and in my soul of all these memories and dreams that i have had that i will never be able to accomplish, thsi would all be different if my nana was hear and god knows how close i was to her and that the one thing tht would break me quicker than anythin else in the world would be to take her from me and that monster took her from me when i needed her the god damn most
How can someoen be that fucking cruel to take away the one person who i knew woudl be there for me the one thing that kept me moving everyday He just ripped her from me and the fucking doctors they knew there were other medicinces that they coudl give her to save her life even i know of them and THEY NEVER FUCKING GAVE THEM TO HERR THE GOD DAMN FUCKING ASSHOLES!! *Crys* I need my name I can't take this separation without her I need her she is the only one in my family who truely accepted me for me... she knew move about me than some of my friends even.. Nana... I can't live without her... Sometimes I wish I could see her again and feel her hug and hear her laugh... if it ment me being dead...
Without my nana I feel like a souless being walking around. She was my life, most of my heart, my strength, shoulder, my will, pride, and my future... I cant be without her... Nana I love you miss you and need you..
I don't think I can live without her.