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I will never understand my life, Just when its finally turning around something comes up and bites me in the ass ok lets see here. I dont feel like going through the hole nine yards of whats been going on lately so I'll do a breif summary on this.
1. My last nana died dec. 1 so i was out for a week and a half
2. because i was out for a week and a half and my teacher was out for the week i was gone i got an i in french and now ive been told they think she quit so i dunno where she is or how to get my grades back up.
3. my mom has a boy firend my dads trying to kick her out were going into bankcrupcy ive about lost m voice because of my crying and screaming at them to stop. I feel like rolling over and barfing because of all of this
4. both of my parents are trying to pull me into this and stuff trying to make my choose what to do and when i make my choice the other one makes em feel guilty for choosing it. i can't cry anymore or i fear that the next time I'll never stop crying.
5. Im losing everyhting i hold dear to me anymore I dont know what to do anymore. When i go to bed I dont even feel like waking up anymore I cant control my anger anymore I've gotten so mad at my dad I've started to through things at him. like papers eye drop bottle hates my wrist ban whatever i cant that I know really wont hurt him...
6. My parents have filled bankrupcy or rather got the papers for it they are making me pay full price for lunch so Im just buying pizza instead of lunch becuase its about the same price.
7. When I wake up in the morning I pray that something will happen (nothing that will hurt my parents really) but i pray somethign will happen so i dont have to go home (so long as nothign happens to our stuff)
8. our house is now offically in forclosur We got a call today about it...
9. I dont want to get close to anyone anymore not really because I'm sick and tired of being lied to about everything I just want to go and cry. Thursday during homeroom I left mrs sears class and went and cried in the bathroom for thirtyminutes.
10. my parents have went around yelling about killing eachother my moms pulled a butchers knife on my dad for "protection" and I'm assuming my dad got a 12 ga. gun out today because when i woke up it was on the kitchen table and still is... my moms left an hour ago to go be with "boy friend"
11.I just want to know whos really my friend or not. I know some of you people act like you are and when I type this im refering to certain people specifically that i dont know if your my friend or not. I want to know so i dont waist my life thinking you are and trying to talk to you when you dont want jack shit to do with me anyways...
12. My dads acting like a prick and wants me to give him numbers to people I used to babysit because he thinks he has a fucking chance with him they are so out of his leauge its not even humourous. It woudl be me actually think in a serious world that I hav a chance with Orlando bloom.
Sorry about that but I havne't really talked to anyone about any of this and I'm just about to go crazy. If i come to school moody somedays and you know you haven't done anything to me please dont get mad at me if im slighlty bitchy to you. I dont mean to be sometimes i cant help it.
1. My last nana died dec. 1 so i was out for a week and a half
2. because i was out for a week and a half and my teacher was out for the week i was gone i got an i in french and now ive been told they think she quit so i dunno where she is or how to get my grades back up.
3. my mom has a boy firend my dads trying to kick her out were going into bankcrupcy ive about lost m voice because of my crying and screaming at them to stop. I feel like rolling over and barfing because of all of this
4. both of my parents are trying to pull me into this and stuff trying to make my choose what to do and when i make my choice the other one makes em feel guilty for choosing it. i can't cry anymore or i fear that the next time I'll never stop crying.
5. Im losing everyhting i hold dear to me anymore I dont know what to do anymore. When i go to bed I dont even feel like waking up anymore I cant control my anger anymore I've gotten so mad at my dad I've started to through things at him. like papers eye drop bottle hates my wrist ban whatever i cant that I know really wont hurt him...
6. My parents have filled bankrupcy or rather got the papers for it they are making me pay full price for lunch so Im just buying pizza instead of lunch becuase its about the same price.
7. When I wake up in the morning I pray that something will happen (nothing that will hurt my parents really) but i pray somethign will happen so i dont have to go home (so long as nothign happens to our stuff)
8. our house is now offically in forclosur We got a call today about it...
9. I dont want to get close to anyone anymore not really because I'm sick and tired of being lied to about everything I just want to go and cry. Thursday during homeroom I left mrs sears class and went and cried in the bathroom for thirtyminutes.
10. my parents have went around yelling about killing eachother my moms pulled a butchers knife on my dad for "protection" and I'm assuming my dad got a 12 ga. gun out today because when i woke up it was on the kitchen table and still is... my moms left an hour ago to go be with "boy friend"
11.I just want to know whos really my friend or not. I know some of you people act like you are and when I type this im refering to certain people specifically that i dont know if your my friend or not. I want to know so i dont waist my life thinking you are and trying to talk to you when you dont want jack shit to do with me anyways...
12. My dads acting like a prick and wants me to give him numbers to people I used to babysit because he thinks he has a fucking chance with him they are so out of his leauge its not even humourous. It woudl be me actually think in a serious world that I hav a chance with Orlando bloom.
Sorry about that but I havne't really talked to anyone about any of this and I'm just about to go crazy. If i come to school moody somedays and you know you haven't done anything to me please dont get mad at me if im slighlty bitchy to you. I dont mean to be sometimes i cant help it.