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oh man...
am i ever ready to rant now.
so here goes:
i have come to realize something more now than ever.
people always let the past pre-determine their futures.
weather it's "can i do this job, i didn't succeed the first time"
or
"shall i date again, i've been hurt before."
or
"should i move away from here?"
or
"can i help this person, i've failed before"
or
"can i accomplish this goal, i failed before"
or
"can i trust again, they always hurt me/leave me... blah blah"
there's always something. and i hate it. i hate that i know i do it.
i catch myself thinking i'll fail because i did before.
or that i can't get into a relationship again because they are all the same.. (which they are not, and i'm realizing that completely now.)
or i find myself thinking i can't do something, because i'm not good enough, because i couldn't do it the first time, so what's so different now?
and then, i mean and now.
i realize i need to try and leave the past behind me. because i'm ruining all i have now, or all that i could have, and everything i can accomplish, because i'm growing. my mind is expanding and my eyes are being opened up to new possibilities, new ideas.
and for once i'm letting my ideas flow. i'm not worried about what everyone else thinks.
what everyone else says.
i'm not forcing it. but i'm trying really hard to keep an open mind. to everything.
so all i really wanted to say was. everyone try and open up your mind. and give everyone the chance to get close to you. your friend especially. it will take a while, but you will find friends that are gonna stick around. believe me.
give them the chance to get close to you. it will eventually be good and you'll be happy.
and i want you all to be happy.
and for all of you who have been there for me. and all of you that listen, and care, and come to me when you need help. and.. and... for everyone who is part of my life: i give you ten super-duper-shiny-3/d-gold stars. because you guys rock.
have confidence in yourself and those who will catch you when you fall.
am i ever ready to rant now.
so here goes:
i have come to realize something more now than ever.
people always let the past pre-determine their futures.
weather it's "can i do this job, i didn't succeed the first time"
or
"shall i date again, i've been hurt before."
or
"should i move away from here?"
or
"can i help this person, i've failed before"
or
"can i accomplish this goal, i failed before"
or
"can i trust again, they always hurt me/leave me... blah blah"
there's always something. and i hate it. i hate that i know i do it.
i catch myself thinking i'll fail because i did before.
or that i can't get into a relationship again because they are all the same.. (which they are not, and i'm realizing that completely now.)
or i find myself thinking i can't do something, because i'm not good enough, because i couldn't do it the first time, so what's so different now?
and then, i mean and now.
i realize i need to try and leave the past behind me. because i'm ruining all i have now, or all that i could have, and everything i can accomplish, because i'm growing. my mind is expanding and my eyes are being opened up to new possibilities, new ideas.
and for once i'm letting my ideas flow. i'm not worried about what everyone else thinks.
what everyone else says.
i'm not forcing it. but i'm trying really hard to keep an open mind. to everything.
so all i really wanted to say was. everyone try and open up your mind. and give everyone the chance to get close to you. your friend especially. it will take a while, but you will find friends that are gonna stick around. believe me.
give them the chance to get close to you. it will eventually be good and you'll be happy.
and i want you all to be happy.
and for all of you who have been there for me. and all of you that listen, and care, and come to me when you need help. and.. and... for everyone who is part of my life: i give you ten super-duper-shiny-3/d-gold stars. because you guys rock.
have confidence in yourself and those who will catch you when you fall.