Of paranoia and anger
Today has been a day of horribleness. Besides Will coming over and showing me High School Host Club (which is hilarious and brillant and made of wonderfulness), everything has just been, frankly, depressing. I feel like I did back in high school. I just feel out of the loop, like people are intentionally avoiding me. Parties are going on involving most of my close friends, and who is the one person not invited me? Me. Okay, whatever, I'm not wanted. I just wish people would just come out and tell what they are feeling. Just say "Kate, I don't like you because x y and z" Sure, I will be upset. Who likes being told that they are not liked? But at least I will know where I stand. Maybe then I will have less cause to be paranoid. But cut it with this "lets throw a party and invite everyone else in the group, but not Kate" business. Or this "yeah, well, although I said that I would do something with you tonight, um, I am instead doing stuff tonight, and no, I will not tell you what I am doing." Maybe if I was more self-confident I would be liked more. But tonight kind of confirmed all of my doubts, so don't look for any self confidence from me. Bleh. Thats it, I am going to escape from this world for awhile and indulge in WoW. My Draenei needs to kill some Blood elves. They are soo much fun to kill! And yes this post has been ranty and emo! yay!