Nov 20, 2004 12:32
God People are Gay!
So today I have to help clean for my brothers stupid party... Which is gay because I dont want to and Hes acting so gay and bothering me... Gosh I realy need to get out of this house.
It most definitly seems like my mom is not proud of me for anything and everything I accomplish and right now I think thats what I need to have..
Examples...
Report card... All A's in my core classes... WHat does she say "C- in spanish well Tera that is almost a D"
Ok so the first time I ever get all A's in core classes and she talks about my bad grade which really isnt that bad and its not close to a D it is closer to a C
Then there is SpiritLine tryouts... I did pretty good at try outs and it still seems like shes not happy with me..
I am also getting good grades on tests and she just wants me to do better... Way to much presure right now!
I am trying so hard to be nice to her and everyone else in this house... and it just gets me stuck up in my room.. It seems like I cant even be around them with out being mad... I dont think I have ever cried as much as I have this week and none of them understand... This really sucks!
It seems like the only good thing in my life right now are my Friends of course and Ray
Now that that is all out I am going to go finish doing my stupid cleaning
Bye
I am so lost lately ...
I dont think I am finding my way back any time soon