let me forget about today until tomorrow

[heart__attacks]

These past few weeks have sucked. Spring Break starts today. But I'm not really that excited anymore. At least school was something to keep my mind off of stuff that has been bothering me.

I hate the fact that my girlfriends and I never hang out all together anymore. We all have different boyfriends and our own shit to deal with.

I have cried/felt like crying almost every other day these past few weeks. I'm just frustrated, fed up...I don't even know what I'm really feeling anymore. And I just wish I didn't feel anything anymore.

I wish I didn't feel like this. I wish I could stop complaining about all this high school bullshit. I know I would enjoy everything so much more. But things just keep happening, and keep stressing me out even more. I don't want to be left out. And honestly, I do care what people think of me, and I want to fit in.

I wish it was summer. I wish it was last summer. I want things to get better, I want all this to go away. It will, and I will just have to wait it out, like I always do.

PS. The 7th grade boy across the street from me has cancer.

i need a big hug :[