Let out a scream, and release the pressure.
I can't breathe.
I am just so angry. Words can not even explain the emotions that I am experiencing right now.
I'm hurt. Scared. Angry Furious. Torn. Full of rage. But none of these things quite fit. It's something more, something different. Unless you have been through an experience like I have, you will never understand.
I am so hurt for my father. I see his face and I want to cry. He doesn't deserve any of this. No one does.
I feel sick.
The whole thing just makes me ill.
There is a pit in my stomach.
When someone says her name it feels like a kick in my gut and I see red.
I cry, but then realize I'm not crying out of sadness, it is out of rage and frustration.
I have never had a genuine urge to wish harm on another person, but the feelings I have right now go beyond that.
Who are you to ruin the life of another?
Who are you to tear apart a family over lies.
That's what they are, LIES.
You CUNT.
I spit your name out like some kind of disease.
I hate you for making me feel this way.
I hate you for making my father feel this way.
I hate you for everything you've ever lied about.
I hate you for manipulating my mother.
I hate you for making yourself into the person you are now.
I hate you.
You can't live with this forever. The truth will surface, and when it does I hope you enjoy the life of isolation and disgrace you have created for yourself.
I cry not because I am sad, but because I don't know what else to do.