I just
that I smoke as much weed as I do purposely. Whether I realize why I'm doing it or not. Usually it's because I'd rather live my life in a haze, so it goes by quickly, than to have to deal with every pain staking minute, every little emotion or feeling; life is made simple as I just seem to watch it race by.
The only time I smoke weed this excessively when I'm in Yuba City. Yuba City makes me feel dead inside, like a failure, just for being here. I don't want to spend a lot of time here, so I smoke and it doesn't seem like so long. Ah, it will have been 1 month that I've been home in just a few days. Send me back already I'm ridiculously miserable.
The only time I smoke weed this excessively when I'm in Yuba City. Yuba City makes me feel dead inside, like a failure, just for being here. I don't want to spend a lot of time here, so I smoke and it doesn't seem like so long. Ah, it will have been 1 month that I've been home in just a few days. Send me back already I'm ridiculously miserable.