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i've been doing okay with the 20 minute yoga every day, and my fast didn't last on monday or tuesday. but i did a full day one yesterday. i don't know why this is so hard for me... i really just don't understand.
today i'm planning to eat pretty healthy, and avoid temptation at work. if i could go on NO food yesterday, i must be able to go on no junk food. maybe i should go vegan for a while? just to avoid all that shit at work? i don't know. something restrictive where i can still eat good food and be happy.... anyway. breakfast today is soymilk and a banana. lunch will be a salad. dinner, who knows. but i'll bring popcorn in as a snack, because i love popcorn and it's a great thing to munch on when you're hungry. i think i'm out of grapes and apples, though, so who knows what will happen if i crave sweets.
i can have 2 pieces of chocolate today.
oh, and i figured out a temporary punisher (instead of a reinforcer). caitlin is supposed to bring me a bunch of DVDs when she visits. for each day that i don't achieve my goals, one DVD gets taken off the pile. yesterday, i slogged through that fast to earn super troopers. today i will earn my cousin vinny. if i eat after 8 pm, don't do 20 minutes of yoga, OR eat more than 2 pieces of chocolate (and by a piece, i don't mean a king-sized snickers bar, but more like... bite-sized ones, or little reese's minis, or york truffles, or 1 small cookie, any of that shit going around at work), then caitlin will not give me my cousin vinny.
see? the punisher might work out better than the reinforcer, because instead of finding something to isolate that i can only earn for doing things right, we can take away stuff that i'm already looking forward to having. any other ideas for punishers? they don't have to be anything cruel, just something good that i want to keep that i can say, "well if i don't do X, i don't get to keep Z, and i want Z, so i will work my butt off to do X."
anyway, um, i've now posted too long to actually do yoga this morning, but i'll do it in the evening instead. i have to. otherwise i'll lose MY COUSIN VINNY. you guys should have seen me weeping at the sight of york truffles yesterday and saying "SUPER TROOPERS! the snozzberries taste like... snozzberries..." to myself. and i avoided those damn truffles like the plague!
anyway. i'll limit myself to 2 for a few days, then to 1, then to 0 for a while. i need to control this binge problem. and it's better to not have that shit in my diet anyway. the really gross processed stuff, i mean... i'll always buckle for trader joe's organic chocolate truffles. I LOVE THE WORD TRUFFLES.
okay, i think i'm just losing my mind now, so uh, bye.
today i'm planning to eat pretty healthy, and avoid temptation at work. if i could go on NO food yesterday, i must be able to go on no junk food. maybe i should go vegan for a while? just to avoid all that shit at work? i don't know. something restrictive where i can still eat good food and be happy.... anyway. breakfast today is soymilk and a banana. lunch will be a salad. dinner, who knows. but i'll bring popcorn in as a snack, because i love popcorn and it's a great thing to munch on when you're hungry. i think i'm out of grapes and apples, though, so who knows what will happen if i crave sweets.
i can have 2 pieces of chocolate today.
oh, and i figured out a temporary punisher (instead of a reinforcer). caitlin is supposed to bring me a bunch of DVDs when she visits. for each day that i don't achieve my goals, one DVD gets taken off the pile. yesterday, i slogged through that fast to earn super troopers. today i will earn my cousin vinny. if i eat after 8 pm, don't do 20 minutes of yoga, OR eat more than 2 pieces of chocolate (and by a piece, i don't mean a king-sized snickers bar, but more like... bite-sized ones, or little reese's minis, or york truffles, or 1 small cookie, any of that shit going around at work), then caitlin will not give me my cousin vinny.
see? the punisher might work out better than the reinforcer, because instead of finding something to isolate that i can only earn for doing things right, we can take away stuff that i'm already looking forward to having. any other ideas for punishers? they don't have to be anything cruel, just something good that i want to keep that i can say, "well if i don't do X, i don't get to keep Z, and i want Z, so i will work my butt off to do X."
anyway, um, i've now posted too long to actually do yoga this morning, but i'll do it in the evening instead. i have to. otherwise i'll lose MY COUSIN VINNY. you guys should have seen me weeping at the sight of york truffles yesterday and saying "SUPER TROOPERS! the snozzberries taste like... snozzberries..." to myself. and i avoided those damn truffles like the plague!
anyway. i'll limit myself to 2 for a few days, then to 1, then to 0 for a while. i need to control this binge problem. and it's better to not have that shit in my diet anyway. the really gross processed stuff, i mean... i'll always buckle for trader joe's organic chocolate truffles. I LOVE THE WORD TRUFFLES.
okay, i think i'm just losing my mind now, so uh, bye.