Life and School. Or Life vs. School
Gah. Getting sick of school. Relaxed tonight instead of doing some of the stuff I thought I "had to" do. I dunno. It's interesting, that relaxing during a full school load business. ;) Still crushing out on the, well, uh, Crush. I think it could be because there's not really much else to occupy my mind. School is very much, though not totally, boring me this semester, while also being a whole lot of work that encompasses pretty much a whole lot of my time. So I spend much of it (and nearly every weekend, when I am back home and there's NOT actually any chance of running into him, ironically enough) daydreaming and thinking about him. School's not all dull, and I can certainly tell I'm learning usefull stuff, and, for instance, some of the science I'm picking up is invaluable (like the fascinating [no, *I* DO mean that!] anatomy exam we had at 8am this morning for the biology lab). But the rest? Sigh. Well, let's just say I really am not being challenged by much of it: I'm not getting a ton out of it. Psychology is proving to me that I apparently loved psych all along and know pretty much all of the concepts, though not by their bland, cold cognitive scientific names. I'm not much into cognitive psychology. If anything, I would be more into biological psychology. Biblical Archaeology is a pretty interesting and cool and fun class. But somehow it feels outside and accessory to the other classes: all science or soft science, in the case of the pysch. So maybe I should've never taken the psych, since it's so rediculously easy and is easting up good amounts of my valuable, precious, formerly homeschooled time (I used to think I could do whatever I wanted with my own time). I really DO enjoy the Bible class, I just never read for it... Then again, I never read for it's prerequisite for the same prof last year when I was part time and had elected it totally on my own and with no cooersion of guilt over taking enough courses. I guess that's just the way I am, then, with his classes.
Beginning biology continues to be about things like the AIDS epidemic, vaccines, evolution, diseases, cancer, and other things that I find I know vast amounts of, but the prof's exams are tricky, unneccessarily damaging to nearly every student's former GPA status (for instance, no one does well in this class at all), but my grade has slowly crept up and hopefully might end up pretty good. The lab for it, also, is something I highly value (though it's only worth 1 credit hour to me), and I feel I "needed" that portion, if that makes sense. I wonder if I could've taken the lab only. Hmm. :)
Chemistry is an interesting one all on it's own. Chem, I am learning, is not, and will likely never be, a favorite subject of mine, though again, I am grateful for the genuine chemistry knowledge I am gaining. I feel like I could've learned the same stuff more intensely and more quickly, without the extra time and space taken up with getting general majors through the material and working with kids who hate it- and so do badly. I hate it, but I'm looking at a lot more of it in my future, so while my impulse is to burst into hysterics with the other smart but utterly bored kids who sit next to me, my other instinct is to actually respect (because she's flipping BRILLIANT in her field!) the professor, listen to her, and take notes. I find, again, that in the beginning level class, there are no other pre-med or pre-anything related to science majors who hate the chemistry but need the subject. So I have the option of blowing it off as a core requirement that has nothing to do with me (what the others are doing), enjoying it (I don't), or actually paying attention and learning stuff (I try, but when I've finally ceased to freak out myself about how I'm going to learn it, then I just get plain bored and annoyed and the cycle starts all over again, and just really, really never ceases). All that said, chemistry is like, vaguely, vaguely interesting. ;) I can't deny it. :) It's good to know. Yeah, really. In chem's 1-credit lab, I am receiving a straight A, interesting since my lab grade is at something like C write now. So I'm pulling my highest and my lowest scienee grade there. Which is sort of weird. I find the lab easy, and the requirements easy enough to fulfil. :)
Finally, I'm also taking the biology seminar for potential majors or pre-med persons. I got an A on it's first exam and am enjoying very well. This A was even with the professor who likes to give all evil grades. We're learning about cancer, including a large amount of beginning cell biology knowledge, as well as a half of the class devoted to learning to write about science well, and preparing a large research paper, and these three subjects are topics that interest me very much and the level of the material is at just the right level to apparently sufficiently challenge me to do well but not freak out, nor to bore me to tears, or cause me to dispair or lose hope. In that class, I feel smart and knowledgable. That class is pretty much perfect.
Rach
To recap: I like biology lab, biology future pre-med seminar, & Biblical Archaeology. I like that I'm learning chem, especially in the lab.
Pysch is way too easy and way too boring at the same time; I don't feel like I'm getting a single thing out of it or that I need it; it is a challenge to sit through it each week, and it's probably the class I hate sitting through the most, next to chem (and taught by what increasingly seems to be a sexist prof).
Chem lab is something torturous to get through but mysteriously easy to do more than OK in, chem is a thorn in my side, and:
Biology general lecture for non-majors is possibly one of my most uncomfortable conflicts: it's so "right," and it's so wrong. I feel like I don't need it at all, but then again I love that I can sit and have all the info wash over me. I hate the exams with a passion. But I guess everyone does.
Beginning biology continues to be about things like the AIDS epidemic, vaccines, evolution, diseases, cancer, and other things that I find I know vast amounts of, but the prof's exams are tricky, unneccessarily damaging to nearly every student's former GPA status (for instance, no one does well in this class at all), but my grade has slowly crept up and hopefully might end up pretty good. The lab for it, also, is something I highly value (though it's only worth 1 credit hour to me), and I feel I "needed" that portion, if that makes sense. I wonder if I could've taken the lab only. Hmm. :)
Chemistry is an interesting one all on it's own. Chem, I am learning, is not, and will likely never be, a favorite subject of mine, though again, I am grateful for the genuine chemistry knowledge I am gaining. I feel like I could've learned the same stuff more intensely and more quickly, without the extra time and space taken up with getting general majors through the material and working with kids who hate it- and so do badly. I hate it, but I'm looking at a lot more of it in my future, so while my impulse is to burst into hysterics with the other smart but utterly bored kids who sit next to me, my other instinct is to actually respect (because she's flipping BRILLIANT in her field!) the professor, listen to her, and take notes. I find, again, that in the beginning level class, there are no other pre-med or pre-anything related to science majors who hate the chemistry but need the subject. So I have the option of blowing it off as a core requirement that has nothing to do with me (what the others are doing), enjoying it (I don't), or actually paying attention and learning stuff (I try, but when I've finally ceased to freak out myself about how I'm going to learn it, then I just get plain bored and annoyed and the cycle starts all over again, and just really, really never ceases). All that said, chemistry is like, vaguely, vaguely interesting. ;) I can't deny it. :) It's good to know. Yeah, really. In chem's 1-credit lab, I am receiving a straight A, interesting since my lab grade is at something like C write now. So I'm pulling my highest and my lowest scienee grade there. Which is sort of weird. I find the lab easy, and the requirements easy enough to fulfil. :)
Finally, I'm also taking the biology seminar for potential majors or pre-med persons. I got an A on it's first exam and am enjoying very well. This A was even with the professor who likes to give all evil grades. We're learning about cancer, including a large amount of beginning cell biology knowledge, as well as a half of the class devoted to learning to write about science well, and preparing a large research paper, and these three subjects are topics that interest me very much and the level of the material is at just the right level to apparently sufficiently challenge me to do well but not freak out, nor to bore me to tears, or cause me to dispair or lose hope. In that class, I feel smart and knowledgable. That class is pretty much perfect.
Rach
To recap: I like biology lab, biology future pre-med seminar, & Biblical Archaeology. I like that I'm learning chem, especially in the lab.
Pysch is way too easy and way too boring at the same time; I don't feel like I'm getting a single thing out of it or that I need it; it is a challenge to sit through it each week, and it's probably the class I hate sitting through the most, next to chem (and taught by what increasingly seems to be a sexist prof).
Chem lab is something torturous to get through but mysteriously easy to do more than OK in, chem is a thorn in my side, and:
Biology general lecture for non-majors is possibly one of my most uncomfortable conflicts: it's so "right," and it's so wrong. I feel like I don't need it at all, but then again I love that I can sit and have all the info wash over me. I hate the exams with a passion. But I guess everyone does.