a day
I wrote a letter to Colin telling him my side of what went wrong in our relationship. He wrote back defending himself. I wrote again, undercutting all of his defenses, informed him that I wouldn't read any reply he sent, and then to make sure I don't, blocked his e-mails. I feel surprisingly good. Usually I don't say everything that I need to in a relationship that has gone wrong. This time I did. I claimed responsibility for the things I had done wrong, refused to let him shrug off responsibility for what he did, and then severed contact completely. If he ends up regretting, tough. I don't give romantic relationships second chances anymore. Erica says that she always thought I was too good for him, and that the way he's acted proves it. I think I'll agree with her :P
I feel pretty today. I'm not sure what it is, but I do. Pretty and confident. I'm not sure if I did well on my exam today, but she handed back the one from Monday and omgwtf I got . . . 100%! No, I am not kidding, on an English exam I got 100% Her comments? "Excellent (underlined) exam" "exactly right!" "good! excellent recall of class discussion" and then a whole smattering of "good"s and "excellent"s. I am so happy and excited. So far in this course, I am now getting an A+, and if I do well on the paper I could even keep it. It would be my first A+ final grade in two years if I did. Even if I get an A, it will be the first solid A in over a year. I am very happy.
And now, for the first time in days, I actually feel hungry. Very hungry. And there is little healthy food at my house, so I will stop for groceries on my way home. But in spite of posting to womenofthemoon before class, I now actually want to eat. It's like two weights have been lifted from me, one inter-personal, one academic. I feel light. I feel I am made of light. I could be a female saint :)
I feel pretty today. I'm not sure what it is, but I do. Pretty and confident. I'm not sure if I did well on my exam today, but she handed back the one from Monday and omgwtf I got . . . 100%! No, I am not kidding, on an English exam I got 100% Her comments? "Excellent (underlined) exam" "exactly right!" "good! excellent recall of class discussion" and then a whole smattering of "good"s and "excellent"s. I am so happy and excited. So far in this course, I am now getting an A+, and if I do well on the paper I could even keep it. It would be my first A+ final grade in two years if I did. Even if I get an A, it will be the first solid A in over a year. I am very happy.
And now, for the first time in days, I actually feel hungry. Very hungry. And there is little healthy food at my house, so I will stop for groceries on my way home. But in spite of posting to womenofthemoon before class, I now actually want to eat. It's like two weights have been lifted from me, one inter-personal, one academic. I feel light. I feel I am made of light. I could be a female saint :)