I aint mad atcha
hahaha damn why am i laughing and why does this week keep getting better?? youd think things would bother me.. and im really shocked they dont!!! i hate feeling this way! i hate not being sure how im suposed to feel.. little shocked, little dissappointed.. dont know?? dont give a flying fuck lol its flippin amazing how much life changes you.. its like one day something would feel like it ripped your heart out and tossed it away.. but today it just gets lost in a deep black hole... really doesnt matter.. thats what i told her.. and believe it or not.. i believe it 100% i almost feel as if i dont care what happens next.. im moving on i have the possibility of being with someone else.. i honestly dont think it would be right for me to be.. cause no 1 else will ever be able to close this hole.. and its really not fare to try to get someone too.. its almost easier not to care to just let things be the way they are.. and be happy your out of the stupid shit you grew up in.. its time to actually grow up and grow out.. to get rid of the stupid ass shit that used to hold you back.. who knows what my life has for me.. i know one thing tho.. you learn more and more about life every day.. its what you do with it..
i looked at people that are in happy relationships and think why cant i have that?? why cant i just find a girl that i can have a good time with and not have to deal with the bullshit... maybe for somepeople that can be a reality... but for me its an enigma.. and im seriously done with chasing my own ass.. im done with giving people credit.. im DONE!! tired of trusting people no 1 can keep a knife out of your back.. very very valueable lesson.. rely on no one.. trust 2 people God and yourself..
i looked at people that are in happy relationships and think why cant i have that?? why cant i just find a girl that i can have a good time with and not have to deal with the bullshit... maybe for somepeople that can be a reality... but for me its an enigma.. and im seriously done with chasing my own ass.. im done with giving people credit.. im DONE!! tired of trusting people no 1 can keep a knife out of your back.. very very valueable lesson.. rely on no one.. trust 2 people God and yourself..