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this has been a very eventful day hell weekend! ive learned alot about other people and actually even some about myself.. i know now what it looks like to have a dude holding on when you want them to let go... i know now i can feel something for someone else even when im totally head over heels for someone in paticular.. at the same time i know what i want.. and i know what i gotta do about it.. i dont know if im strong enough to do it... its funny how when it comes to psyical things i can tap shit out like a machine.. ive had soo much shit thrown my way and ive always been able to beat it.. no matter what the obstacle has been ive been able to trample it.. (psyically).... when it comes to my heart its a whole nother story.. sure ive had my heart broken.. and i know id be an absolute fool to get back with her.. frankly i dont give a damn.. i would take her back... but now i think its time to make a change if she dont want me why she talkin to me??? why she get upset when she hears i went out dancing.. i know she wants someone else.. and i know i need to find someone else too but do i want that?? i know as soon as i do the tables are gonna turn and things that fit with my life will no longer fit.. and my luck (most likely will happen) she'll be singing that song.. when im able to be wit someone else there will be no more hope for us and that scares the piss outta me its tough enough to get over her this time.. no way in hell i could get over her and go back.. i honestly want my life my heart and my love back... but i know now i gotta stop shootin for the stars.. and maybe ill get lucky and have a star find me for a change...
aigh now that i just babbled for like 20 mins about something i should be way the hell over...
business starts monday! and i cant wait.. and by oct i will be living by my lonesome.. thank god!!! im ready to start my life.. and cut the stupid shit away thats holding me back.. i guess if it doesnt go wit me it has to stay right?? cant drag things along..
in other news i feel pretty good i beat the piss outta a girls boyfriend lol bitch boy wont hit her again right?? and i gotta help her get a car.. should be cool i love helpin people.. aigh well got a phone call peace out
like anyone even reads this shit right???
aigh now that i just babbled for like 20 mins about something i should be way the hell over...
business starts monday! and i cant wait.. and by oct i will be living by my lonesome.. thank god!!! im ready to start my life.. and cut the stupid shit away thats holding me back.. i guess if it doesnt go wit me it has to stay right?? cant drag things along..
in other news i feel pretty good i beat the piss outta a girls boyfriend lol bitch boy wont hit her again right?? and i gotta help her get a car.. should be cool i love helpin people.. aigh well got a phone call peace out
like anyone even reads this shit right???