it takes an ocean of trust
hi, i am a mess tonight.
tonight i drank only half a bottle of wine, then i watched fatal attraction and wild orchid on tv. wild orchid is like dirty dancing the erotic edition, only without the dancing. and through the entire movie mickey rourke is all seductive but then like "do not touch me, no woman can ever touch me". oh the tension! and then at the very end he like, explodes in sweatiness on a persian carpet. finally he got touched! i wish mickey rourke was still hot. 80s movies are fun.
i haven't updated this in a while and should probably write about what life was like in january and half of february, but i don't feel like it. i just feel like the year never really started. i feel very empty while at the same time very confused, in the heart area. it is a messy situation. it was really depressing to come home from work this evening and realise i am too weak and dumb to avoid the mess.
then i waited a long time for this one thing to happen, thinking i would be all yes! finally it happened. then in january it happened and now i don't know how to feel about it at all. just to add to the confusion.
i have been watching and listening to this new doves song a lot today. strange memories to that voice.
2009 is not a very good year so far. that is all.
tonight i drank only half a bottle of wine, then i watched fatal attraction and wild orchid on tv. wild orchid is like dirty dancing the erotic edition, only without the dancing. and through the entire movie mickey rourke is all seductive but then like "do not touch me, no woman can ever touch me". oh the tension! and then at the very end he like, explodes in sweatiness on a persian carpet. finally he got touched! i wish mickey rourke was still hot. 80s movies are fun.
i haven't updated this in a while and should probably write about what life was like in january and half of february, but i don't feel like it. i just feel like the year never really started. i feel very empty while at the same time very confused, in the heart area. it is a messy situation. it was really depressing to come home from work this evening and realise i am too weak and dumb to avoid the mess.
then i waited a long time for this one thing to happen, thinking i would be all yes! finally it happened. then in january it happened and now i don't know how to feel about it at all. just to add to the confusion.
i have been watching and listening to this new doves song a lot today. strange memories to that voice.
2009 is not a very good year so far. that is all.