WiSHES (and sidenotes)

[headlessteddies]

x I wish I was happy like I used to be.
-- That's the reasoning behind this journal in the first place.
o I wish Shadow and I lived (closer) together
-- I have almost enough money to go out and see him, but I'm not allowed to
x I wish "forever" didn't break my heart
-- I'm working on that one too
o I wish I wasn't terrified at the thought of driving
-- With a bit of work I might be able to break myself of that
x I wish Shadow was here holding me tight
-- Only three more years until he can!
o I wish he could whisper in my ear how it would be OK
-- Three more years!
x I wish I could believe him when he did
-- Things will get better in time.
o I wish I had never made the mistakes with Michael
-- You can't change the past
x I wish I had never made the mistakes with Shadow
-- All I can do is change the future
o I wish I wasn't such a bitter person
-- I'm working on that
x I wish I had never lost my virginity
-- I can be less sexual in the future
o I wish a simple wish would take care of things
-- If it's a strong enough wish it could
x I wish I could hear his voice and feel his arms around me
-- Being a writer, I have a strong imagination... I can use that to my advantage.
o I wish I could stop thinking of the past
-- Shadow says it's good to remember things, as long as you realize that better memories lie ahead.
x I wish I could stop thinking of the future
-- If I was happier, the future wouldn't be such a bad thing
o I wish I could be content with just right now...
-- I'm working on that... and right now, I am :)